....blur... blur....

angry?

...no

sad?

... for my pencil case...

confuse?

..i think so..

what more?

.... dun know what to say...i want penguin!i want PENGUIN!!!

haizz.. today i just argue with parent..... my pencil case zip tore...and what? haizz tension with that f***ing biology subject... when can i really drop it... haizz. i skip english and the first time i skip chemistry class .......and ended up somewhere in MyComic reading DorAemon... i like doraemon... .....just for that pocket only.....
today i also din't eat anything but chocolate... wow... i want be fat!... haizz...
dun know la...
and great i hurt my feet... no one cares....

My Gums Still Bleeding

eversince i put on my braces ....
my gums non-stop bleeding....
is that normal?
scary... aready having low blood pressure...
later no blood pressure..
you can see me in the other world --"
..
someone help me to stop my gum bleeding ...
loz...

Another Saturday ......

as normal for a student....
on saturday ..sure will have co-curriculum or tuition classes....
or even skip everything and go out
or even sleep at home....like a pig..

LOLZ

for me i will have account tuition and physics tuition - -" quite tired waking up early at 10 or even 9...
but mostly ...automatically i will wake up at 4 or 5 in the morning - - even i sleep at 3 in morning... i will sure wake up at 5 am ..


then i will go switch on music.....to keep me awake from sleeping ...
even that fail to keep me awake sometime .......
and worst... u can see me on the floor sleeping ....


sometimes i even dun eat in the morning...
that where my mum become red... and scary...
and that me ran out the house A.S.A.P. to tuition lol..

when i in tuition during account...
i can learn account subject and understand it easily...
but i tense to forget it EASILY too..

but for physics...
no to know what will the situation when
two guys...become GAY and GAY the whole class..

when end.... straight go walk around..
sometimes even go take train go wangsa maju to walk walk..
but now i think cant already..
cuz..now after tuition end.. mostly penguin will bawa me makan makan
and force me to choose a place to eat...make my headache worst . . .

before 6 i will reach home.. sometime 7... lol
if i reach home at 7 mean. i not going out... but will get a nice lecture from my mum..
but if early then 6 that mean i maybe going out with my parent..

then during the night...as usual i will chat non-stop...
and even boom my room with various type of music..
but not dirty music... lolz

now... i even sleep at 3 or 4 because i waited someone to be home..
then i can sleep...
never wait anyone this late before...

while waiting.. i will go read a book which i read it over and over again
or chat online ...
but never touch my school books..
lolz.....(spm this year kin....THIS YEAR!)
then when everything settle... time to go sleep....
but ... i maybe will not sleep cause.. i drink coffee mostly everynight!

LOLZ...

if i din't sleep... mean....
on monday i will sleep in school!

hmm should i write another post?..

NO

what maybe will happen next?

i just realise how stupid am i...

how weak am i..

how useless am i..

..............

whatever..... rubbish ..

i think now i have to focus into

myself more better then anyone helping me..

haiz.. wonder if i can change tonight or maybe still need the time
and still need to resolve some question that have been asking myself long time ..

and i really suffer enough...
i need to cleanse all the pain i suffer and stop being a fool... maybe....
alot of thing have to be done ... even healing back the wounds i suffer from the past..
usally someone will discourge me to do so... but i will ingore them..
the pain i suffer will remain as my pain not yours..
i deal it myself..
maybe by tomorrow i be diffrent ...or same...
but my mind will change...

CT Scan.....

OMG today i slept more then 12 hours...and i skip school again ..hehe because today have to go hospital to check up...or more scan...cuz my doctor advice me to scan as i was having headache for past few times.... (one year ..lol)....
then then i see the time.. omg.. im late ..(not for school but to see a doctor in any hospital or NEUROLOGIST...)
lol only my dad and i went to Ampang Puteri Hospital.....
like twice or more i been there cuz last time i did my operation there...
i DONT miss anything there and everything there is still the same there..
except the payment.....
then then... i go follow my dad go see his doctor first ...
cuz he last time accident and his leg got dislocated.... (dun drive when you drunk)
then after that i go see la.. the NEU NEO what ever neo....
a malay = = " got DATUK somemore... haizzzz..
after normal check up... my dad ask the doc for the scan..
go down and have to wait after 2... lunch time for them..
then we go eat... at coffee been ampang.... .. haizz...
eat chicken pie and salad... my favourite... but...
not that nice - -".. next time dun ask me go there and eat...
but i like the cuppachino there then go back for the scan...
have to go.... cuz have something urgent...
so i been left alone... wondering the whole hospital myself...
but my mum came after 30 minutes...
and we waited quite long... an hour..haizz....
after like 1hour and some minutes... they call me in..
CT scan.. i saw it on the door....
then they tie me up on the bed and scan...
that time i remember about a magnetic scan...
i have my braces on...
maybe will stick on the tube wakakak...
scarry .....then then after scan... have to wait another 1 hour for result pulak . .= =" (they though i check in one night)

then after that ... we went home.. and i get wet because of that damn heavy rain = =

SAUCE FINISH ADI.. T_T

yer.... my nando's extra hot peri peri sauce finish already wuu wuu wuu....

next time got to buy

more....lol...... i wonder what sauce to dip with when i eat fish hehe..
lol...beside today i feel strange when i watch a old movie shown on tv2.... Evolution... quite funny and nice.....but.....haizz remember back the old time....with my relative......
my relative now is way different then my last time.. .
now... they dun care who are you now...... and keep trying to gain something from someone even thier own blood-relative - -"" bad kan?...

lol today also a boring day for me... sit in front of the computer with the speaker switch to the max...and boom the house ......with various types of song.. mostly techno.......
just feel like haizz what the hell... .
omg... i changing - -"..

hmm did anyone turn off their house light from 8 to 9 pm yesterday? ..
earth hour.... give support to the environment...or mother earth will destroy us. - -"

Groove Coverage... still like your musics..

I like colours....

red?

blue?

pink maybe?

lol i like any colours...even dull colours... i dun know why .....every time i see a person.. i wont see the face ....i see the colour obtain from the person body(..not some part... that person will think im perverted - -").... i stare at people shirt for long time... and that person stare at me one kind....exspecially GUYs ..as they thinks im GAY wakakak.... funny sometime..... my favorite place is The Curve as there contains various type of colours... from walls to stuff... even cuties there are colourful....even i get one stack of multi colours paper for my birthday... i will be happy already.,,

so are u going give me one stack?

Boring day....ZZZZZZ

lol what to type ..what to type? i so lazy type....
hmmm tomorrow want to go where better hmmm?
hope tomorrow will be a better day = ="

TAR college? NEVER!

I SKIP CLASS TODAY AGAIN !!! and this time i went TAR college.... dun know what visit... that tuna put my name in... the trip was boring but the girls there ...are hots accept the fats one... and some other girl then during the tour i found 2 dead flies in the kicthen (where they learn dun know what cooking course)... the library was cooling ... and our group made a lot of noise that attracted the student there.... but THE HELL.... they just bring us walk up and walk down like 2 minutes around that ... and i just walk off the group to see what deep in the library.. and i do regroup with my friends down the lobby - -" ( i dun know them a lot... only like 5 to 6 friends only i know)
then we visited the computer lab... where student can access internet tru there....and blah blah blah........... i wonder why this trip is SO boring.... and the only thing i like is the colour there.... but i ain't not going there to study... i hope.........and this trip make me having a bad headache.... haizzz... then at the end... i just scribble the survey form they give and hand over to them back... and go back school......but one thing good about this trip is that we can get to go back early!

then after that i went back and straight became blur when my mum said my dental appointment is at 27/03 which is tomorrow... i so like...AR? NOT ON WEDNESDAY MEH? i do remember telling them that i will only be free on wednesday but why on thursday? then i make a call to confirm that my appointment is today...see see the appointment is at tomorrow.... then i ask if there is slot today... so i can come for today and doesnt interrupt my tuition time... ...but they say full... then they say ...can but have to wait cause today the dentist appointment was quite full today....lol.... then i go bath and while i bathing halfway...that penguin with his car waiting just right outside of my gate = = under the shade..... dun know why penguin cannot wait for me further down... then when i just leave my house... my mum came back and see me entering whose car... - -"... so when we were half way to the dentist.....in pudu...my mum call me ask me who is that... so i answer ...

'there that day got come with that kembara le'

.... then she say

'wa...i though which *** **** fetching you'

... no offence penguin ... still love you a lot ... hehe.... then when i reach there... we reach to early... at 2 .....so we went looking for parking and park just behind the dentist there.... lol i want try play play penguin but i dint know that penguin already know the place... so i fail to play penguinhaizz... then go in and see.. got 1 patient only ... i was like looking one side as i remember what they say... that today they are fully book...but see see so empty..so guess what colour i change to day?... PURPLE! and VIOLET!.... (but look similar) ..hehe

OMG I FEEL LIKE TROWING SOMETHING AT THAT CAT MEOWING SO LONG... BESIDE MY HOUSE!

then after that we went for lunch.. at wangsa maju....... quite close rite from pudu to wangsa maju?...cuz i dun know what to eat in pudu but if at 6 pm maybe i know a place hehe... after that we go to penguin house... (actually i want watch movie 'cetak rompak' at his house cuz my house my mum will kill me... but see see... sleep only ....haizz) until 6.30 pm.. i have to go liow so penguin fetch me back...and when i reach i saw mrs . tan (my neighbour) and chat for 15 minute around there... then i go in my house lol..... my father phone me like 7 times and i dint pick it up because i was too buzy chatting with my neighbour and i have to call him back - -" so place order for my food... ( i should eat first before i come back) and start writing stuff in here hehe... now i have to do my school homework...(maybe you cant belive) bai bai!

AND I STILL NEED SOMETHING TO TROW AT 2 CATS NOW - -"

where all the teacher went?

i wonder.... my only my class teacher aka bio teacher... appear today for BIOLOGY and English teacher gave out the test papers back... OMG i got B3 ... im dead im dead because of the literature part!! i lost marks there ...haizzz....... during P.J ... my class teacher gila already want to know out height and weight dun know for what so we went to the lab ... and take our height and weight... and im the 2nd lightest boy in the class.... not fair i want to be the lightest ....hehe... then we lurk around one of the account class as their class teacher busy with something maybe... and talk nonsense... then english time... have to go back class... and haizzz i need to polish up my form 4 literature.... haiz........then physics time .. i went lab and do my peka experiment... i have the turban helping me... but it seems i do it myself and... IM SCARED OF ELECTRICITY!! ... lucky i dint get shock or i just trow everything outside

I FELL ASLEEP WHEN I WAS TYPING SO I FORGOT WHAT I NEED TO TYPE HEHE SORRY!