Until Now

Till now, you may not like it as I just wan to be your friend, better than nothing rite? I do not want us to be close like the days before, you keep finding me and do "activities", who knows maybe you are up for it that seeking me to accompany you. I remember that you said I will be a talk to you among your friends, or izzit there is other reason that you do not want to follow you to clubbing? You want do what activities you do there, I don't give a damn to you cause we broke up already. SO what the point?

You told me you feel very comfortable when I'm around, but for me it is an up and down feeling feeling for me as I do not want to worry nor care about you... I'm trying to move on. You care mostly for yourself but rarely care about me.

My Intake = ="

Materials & Manufacturing Engineering, I wonder did you guys ever heard of this course or job. In TarC this weird course is about materials used to produce products all round you and the study of the advantages and the disadvantages of selecting that particular materials in manufacturing a product. (can be even condom)

DMT... more likely to be known the most united course (as in helping each other or in terms of communication) in TarC. My intake consist of 27 student with different ages... yet I'm still the youngest of all =D... sadly in term of mentality , some kid is younger than me.

Beside there is 2 more student who is the same "kind" as me..... I was thinking that, so small course got at least 3 PLU already - -" . Of course one is Panda' ex who need helps but do let in any aids given by us. The main problem with him is that HE ALSO DON'T HELP HIMSELF, therefore we ignore him when he needed help or something related to him.

The another person... kinda like me..and it is scary that he is also one of the top student in class..... and weird in a way ... but still he help us a lot by contributing all his maths answer to us =D

Overall everything seems ok yet I don't really know why I choose this course as there is no Chemical Engineering in TarC ~

Nuisance

Siting down one corner and just listening to sad song as tears just flow down like a flowing tap which loses it tap. I seems like I don't learn, I am an NUISANCE to you.... ... why in the world I want to let you in back?... after me for a time sure u get bored and dump me ...scare I become a 'thing' for your friend to talk about you... what you care is yourself. Miss me, a big fake la..... but I still love you.. and treating all this is my wrong... why?

Please Kin..take over your emotion and do not let it happen again .... haiz..
Why everything have to happen like this... It is not I'm hoping for anyway...
Thanks to everybody who cares.. but I really don't know what to do

Happy CNY & Valentine along ~

The first day of Chinese New Year, should be a happy and wonderful day for everyone who celebrate it and with conjunction of Valentine Day~ especially with the present of the love ones beside them.....

As for me, I don't really felt the atmosphere as I felt very lonely yet it is quite sad as there is nothing I can do even with the present of relatives, I still feel lonely for the first time ever I celebrated CNY. Yet I still thinking about you... How are you?

Haiz.. I still cant stop thinking about you. Life just go on and on.

Kin

I'm Kin... a silly boy who always get himself in trouble always and there is no cure to it. Your answer, may sound shaky but it is your decision. I really don't know who I'm really am. Every single night, thinking of the next day, how will it be without it. Every single moment, pretending to be cheerful, just hoping others to smile back and deep inside me is just the pain that I held inside.
I'm not like this. I should be what other people said, happy, cheerful, and enjoy life, but it seems like I'm just sad, scared and disappointed every single moment. Some friend really tried to cheer me up, but not really as I don't like to drag my friend along to my own sorrow.

Hmm.... Pity

I do not even know how Jay Jay got its chain stuck between the gap of its basket and tighten it...causing it to chock on it own... and if I were just one minute late, it sure go heaven T_T....... and lucky I decide to stay back at home ALONE....... if not habis...... no one were to help it .... anyhow lucky its ok...even tough I do not really know why so many blood bleeding out from its mouth.

People Like Us

Come to think about the presentation that I did actually presented in front of my course mate, I feel it is quite interesting as I'm sure out of 100 .. maybe 4-5 people will choose this topic "PLU" NOT PLY OR GLU...its "P"eople "L"ike "U"s, and I do wonder how this name can be form. Maybe it the small group of PLUs that decided to name them this =D.

My outline:~~

Introduction: PLU is a term for Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transsexual (LGBT) of Singapore and Malaysia.

Content:

i. Roles

a) Top – The masculine figure of the relationship. (assertive, protective)

b) Bottom – The feminine figure of the relationship. (passive, receiving)

ii. Appearance & Attitude

a) Varied personalities, as expected in any society; straight-acting, soft, conscious of appearance, predatory, etc.

b) It is assumed one side of a lesbian relationship is more daring than the other, more openly masculine. Affirming with top role.

c) Homosexual male are usually more accepted by females than males.

d) Most are friendly, due to always trying to avoid hostility with others, due to less acceptance in society, which will be covered later .

e) Usually would try to expand their social network, though the internet/meetings, as the gay community is small and isolated in smaller towns and cities in the country.

iii. Rejection

a) Mostly disapproved by society, family and many religions.

b) With the unproven notion that homosexual men are the cause of higher rate in the spread of HIV/AIDS.

c) Due to this, PLU are not willing to expose their identities, and therefore ‘stay in the closet’.

Conclusion: It is the 21^st century. In order to further support the modernization of the world and it’s societies, people should start accepting others for who they are, and not conform to discrimination against certain individuals who are different. They are still human.

In fact I did admit myself as a PLU as I'm really a Bisexual in front of the whole course mate... and they got impress....and lucky I did not loses any friends =D.

As for the teacher comments....

She said I have influence of mother tongue.. Do I speech like a Chinese? Maybe .. and I score 24/30 .. not bad for a loud voice and interesting topic that got all attention. Anyhow , I do not feel disgusted when I admit that I'm PLU.... as I'm so open minded..... Not that open . =D

Thank to Joe helping me in this topic too....
Zen I did mention you in my presentation... you're famous already.

Stars~

Each star i fold, I actually thinking back the past. Sweet and bitter memories mixed along make me feel how silly am I when I was young. When I was a kid, each star I fold perfectly make me feel so happy ... and will get over excited with it.... and repeat the same scenario when I did it again and again XD..

It was so cute that time.....
Now each stars I fold may have a message inside, its like I'm treating it as a locket to keep my trouble away and it does help me feel better after writing the feeling down on a strap of paper and just fold it on.. making me feel much more ease up.

Sometimes the stars I fold with meaning.. I will just give it out even it carries painful memories of mine to my friends and who knows, they won't open the stars rite =D and the memories just go off like that.

The left hand of Nekhbet ( 4 Chalices ) ( Upright )

Yeah my daily tarot , which mean a good day , or better still good luck . Went out with my parent to check my undang ceramah expire or not... but sadly it does~ just a day back = =", I didn't feel anything but my dad gave me lecture...and he asked me ...money grow on tree? XD... If that became reality, I think the whole world will not suffer from poverty. Yet I don't really have a appetite to have breakfast along =D... Therefore, I didn't actually take my breakfast well....

After that .... Sure go back home =D...and bath...listen to Lady GaGa... Bad Romance ( Electro House remix ) and it was cool....the way how the Deejays remix the song... awesome... and hunting down my handphone along.... It seems like my handphone love to hide itself from me .... so sweet ...
And yes... I found it...... under my bed.....and it's time to go ouT! ...to Wangsa Maju just to cut hair =D... and plan to go Subang.... ... which took like half an hour to reach KL Sentral and another 45 min to wait and ride that damn slow KTM = ="

When reach, there is a guy named Shahnon (let assume he is an orange) ...and the orange actually planned want to hang out together...since we just know online... if my parent know about this sure will kena lecture from them again.......... for maybe 15 till 30 minutes. Well that orange...drove an orange car..... and we got a bit of problem deciding where to go next, ( that orange should know well more then me~)

And decided... that big big lion,......with the pyramid... (Sunway Pyramid = = if you can't figure it out), and we just walk around.... ... like and orange and a human XD! and decide where to eat~...
The orange 'said' that he will bring me go eat bone tea meat...... but in the end turn out to me Mc Donalds ...but anyway I do enjoy the lovely Sundae Strawberry ~ love it so much

After enjoying my lovely Sundae Strawberry ( I did forget what was I doing at Sunway when I enjoying) then orange decided to watch a movie..... and I wondering what movie to watch.... as I watch mostly already XD~but then lucky we both haven't watch tooth fairy~ and we booked a time.... which leave around half hour free for us to wonder around in the arcade..... we play a shooting game...which i don't even know what to shoot ... and an unsure versus fun game..... we draw =D (not to mention that my finger was hurt during the process..maybe it's orange dirty tricks )and than..time for the Tooth Fairy... There was a lady... who keep stepping on my shoe along in the cinema F.Y.I..... either she flirting or she nuts =X.

Then we plan to walk.... but orange wanted to steal some candy....so I "accompany" him there along =D......and after his crime.... he ran out of juice and need to restock .... and somehow we planned to go to the mamak stall (which i forgotten which area ). While on the way, the orange went to hunt down his friend while I get myself some air XD.

And when the orange drove his car... and he call his father...... so sweet talk to each other. . . as the "son" talk so loud... and i assume if someone is outside the car... i guess he/she could hear it very well XD and the orange drove us to a .. let assume medium grade mamak stall~.. he order the same as me..just that he has an extra egg!~ My dad did called.... and ask me where am I..... (ps ... parent will not know the location of me) as they want to go to IKEA...... CNY shopping ~=D

And eventually the orange can drive me to IKEA.... =D how sweet rite~but we got a bit lost while we on the way~ (at least got a bit more time together...LOLZ) and after he dropped me..... orange got lost for an hour..... who knows how and why he can get lost in kepong =D


And as for me .... I followed my parent shop awhile and go back =D.....sweet~~

Maybe the card tell me, it is a good day to let go everything?... I did't think of you when I was outside....and I do realise how important is friend is now.....beside hurting my finger =X