Oh Damn....

about 5 month... i stopped DOTA
and just only i finish a DOTA game on Garena..
and i just realise
that..
i'm a freaking noob!
this because my ex complain that i keep dota..
and don't like me dota...
and i stopped ..
just that don't want to hear any nagging from my ex..
stupid and annoying..
and even try to force me CABAL...
and now ... haizz..
SOMEONE teach me how to play dota back T_T..
i know no one will teach me....
and my small brother even better..
even he know the basic need for the two new hero in dota T_T..
argh!!!!..
oh....
i just have less then 17 days more before spm...
why should i care about dota...
maybe i don't care about SPM XD!!
STUDY LA JOHNNY!

KRIS WEIRD PLAN OF ..killing herself

tufckdup says:
bettre buy me the tali guitar
tufckdup says:
i oredi gnna cry d
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
i know u wan desperate to gantung diri
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
but by guitar nylon stringss?
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
got pore
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
rope*
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
wires
tufckdup says:
ceh
tufckdup says:
guitar nylon strings
tufckdup says:
can putus jari u know
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
even ur phone charger wire ,a
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
so u wan putus kepala
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
or kelapa
tufckdup says:
phft

did i?

did i hurt you today?
did i make you smile?
did i disappoint you?
did i irritate you?
did i make you angry?
did i make you cry?
did i?....

these are the only few things i always think
day by day
i can't just stop thinking of these things
except when i'm asleep ..
even when i'm asleep... without my dream catcher..
i will dream all weird stuff...
like past 2 days... i slept in the t.v. hall..
i dreamt something that worried me
till now
and just yesterday...
i dreamt something very weird...
but i do not recall any parts of it well...
but it all related to one person...
who is my penguin...

i know that i did hurt penguin before..
maybe that the doubts i facing...
will i hurt penguin again?
NO...and Never WILL!

just to log in....blogger

yup it take around 20 minutes to log in my account...
not because of the internet connection speed...
but I FORGOTTEN MY PASSWORD AGAIN..
great.... happen always....
i failed 3 subject again ....
Sejarah...
Moral...
and
Add Math..
well... it kinda normal for me ...but
add math..T_T.
nevermind.... i have holidays before my spm come..

facebook ---> ? how to use it...
i got bored with friendster.... now facebook..
i too lazy to add anyone also...
it a waste i register both account...

Didn't expected!

yup..penguin again don't dare to enter my house...
but instead ...went out McD for lunch ...
and bought me something.......

don't try to steal my penguin gift ..
if you want..
you can go wangsa maju livin cabin buy...XD
but i wonder ...does penguin have enough money to use = ='
anyway...
tomorrow i wont be going to school...
not because lazy or want to 'ponteng'
i just want to see my bro shop = =...
in kepong... brem mall......i guess... not brew mall as i stated somewhere ..
and the good news he met an accident... and we wasn't informed untill his friend call one of my family member - -..but everything OK liow.....
he can walk ... and walk slow - -"
...

boring again.....dotz
and my table.... full of wires...
almost half of them i trew them away..
left this only :

wierd..

when i just woke up..
i feel something strange...
first is the blackout .. which turn off my air-cond.... my computer and the internet !
then a strange dream... don't really remember what i really dream of..
but it is something that involve me and someone.
so blur..
then no mood - - for no reason ..
and i spent around 12 min trying to enter TD room 1... which is always a full room --....
then a sms.. but after that sms i feel much better
and then when i called penguin...the pig... i just blur out suddenly
haizzzzz.............

.....my stuff T_T

today my cousins come over and overnight...
and my cousins are girls = =....
pity my stuff....
just now they rape my Cj7 ...pity it..
now all the fuwa dolls missing -.-"
haizz......just now they toke my pendrive withouti realise that my pendrive went missing..
and i search my whole room for it..
now my room so mess up XD
and i go switch on cartoon for them..
so that they will quitely sit down and watch...

YOU CALL ME A CHEATER?

FU*K LA...
THIS THE 1ST TIME EVER SOMEONE CALL ME A CHEATER IN ANY ONLINE GAME I PLAYED
SHIT HIM NOOB DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO PLAY AND DON'T UNDERSTAND SIMPLE ENGLISH
AND CAN CALL ME A CHEATER!?
FU*K THAT STUPID BRAINLESS PLAYER KNOW ONLY POINT FINGER
IF I KNOW HIM OR SHE IN REAL LIFE
I GRANTEE HE OR SHE WILL BE BACK HOME HALF DEAD
DAMN FU*KING NO MOOD TO PLAY ANY GAMES
AND I ALWAYS HOST GAME THAT HE JOIN
I WILL MAKE SURE HE SUFFER WHEN HE JOIN IN ANY GAME WHICH I JOIN
NITE

care for mother earth

yup.... this word is always been spread out by media all around the world
but who really cares?
they just want to be either famous, rich, and greedy.
but remember ignoring the main source of this god creation may bring harm not only to everyone, to everything that are sitting under and above it.
everyday the world either got new record of strange weather
and climate changes
this may sound lame for all those out there but when you really put aside everything and start thinking the effect
you might get frighten
therefore please care for mother earth

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just wondering...a thing,
thinking of it day by day,
but didn't realise what is the reason,
for me to discover what am i thinking,
every time when i feel one kind,
i always think of it,
but,
when can i stop thinking of it?
why did i do it the first place?
lost of my self-confident?
or just wan to have fun?
i feel like i'm not right always,
when i am beside you,
i feel it,
feel strange and secured at the same time,
for what i did,
you forgive,
but for what you did,
i blame it on me,
i'm the one who cost all this misery,
from the start,
and i willing to change,
just for you,
cause i can't afford to lose you anymore,
as i did experince bad,
hurting moments when i lost you,
like a baby who lose it mother,
keep on crying,
but i did my best,
to hide all my tears,
as though i don't give a damn on it,
but deep in my heart,
the cold and painful heart,
keep pumping sending a message,
that i still need you,
to warm me up,
i need you,
sounded like i'm just a selfish person,
who just want you by myself,
and not letting you go even a metre away,
if do,
i feel that my life is unsecured,
and keep on falling,
i'm sorry,
i know,
sorry is just a word,
which can't change anything,
but now i learn my mistake,
and you,
only you,
is who i need.