Me + yoU = TAK NGAM!

??....Random?

2010-03-14T21:22:00.003+08:00

Wondering what am I to you now. I'm confused, and even I don't even know how to face it well. I wonder when i broke up with you, some of my ex find me back...... and new people that want to chase me ....even they didn't see me in real before, and there is one special now..... but I'm not that ready.... afraid that I might use this feel just to replace the missing feel when I'm with you. What is special in me? Why people like me where you just used me?.... I keep confusing myself... YOU ARE GONE... .... forever..? or temporary?....seconds ago? or years apart?.....There are times where I said to myself....Pingu.... Pingu.... where are you now? How are you?............................then I just knock off my mind thinking that PINGU HAD GONE! PLEASE DON'T THINK OF IT ANYMORE!
Hurtful moment when my mind against my emotional.....

2010-03-07T15:07:00.002+08:00

Two papers failed, ES1 and Math 2, as I get my result and it does not effect any of my feelings. I just felt hurt when I think of you and your voice is like a poison to my emotional... I remember you keep asking..."Cant you just skip today class...just to accompany me....I needed you", yeah I wish to,... but then what do I pay for? skipping class or educational.....I know you do not need to study... no need to go college as you so easily give up on your studies... but you didn't think about me.....maybe you really need me.....and I KNOW THAT FEELING IS JUST TEMPORARY TILL THERE SOMEONE THERE HUGGING YOU AND DO WHATEVER THING YOU ALWAYS DO....this is what I though of.. to avoid letting myself to see you ...but sadly it just kills my mood to study when I'm in class.

Until Now

2010-02-27T12:40:00.004+08:00

Till now, you may not like it as I just wan to be your friend, better than nothing rite? I do not want us to be close like the days before, you keep finding me and do "activities", who knows maybe you are up for it that seeking me to accompany you. I remember that you said I will be a talk to you among your friends, or izzit there is other reason that you do not want to follow you to clubbing? You want do what activities you do there, I don't give a damn to you cause we broke up already. SO what the point?

You told me you feel very comfortable when I'm around, but for me it is an up and down feeling feeling for me as I do not want to worry nor care about you... I'm trying to move on. You care mostly for yourself but rarely care about me.

My Intake = ="

2010-02-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Materials & Manufacturing Engineering, I wonder did you guys ever heard of this course or job. In TarC this weird course is about materials used to produce products all round you and the study of the advantages and the disadvantages of selecting that particular materials in manufacturing a product. (can be even condom)

DMT... more likely to be known the most united course (as in helping each other or in terms of communication) in TarC. My intake consist of 27 student with different ages... yet I'm still the youngest of all =D... sadly in term of mentality , some kid is younger than me.

Beside there is 2 more student who is the same "kind" as me..... I was thinking that, so small course got at least 3 PLU already - -" . Of course one is Panda' ex who need helps but do let in any aids given by us. The main problem with him is that HE ALSO DON'T HELP HIMSELF, therefore we ignore him when he needed help or something related to him.

The another person... kinda like me..and it is scary that he is also one of the top student in class..... and weird in a way ... but still he help us a lot by contributing all his maths answer to us =D

Overall everything seems ok yet I don't really know why I choose this course as there is no Chemical Engineering in TarC ~

Nuisance

2010-02-20T01:17:00.003+08:00

Siting down one corner and just listening to sad song as tears just flow down like a flowing tap which loses it tap. I seems like I don't learn, I am an NUISANCE to you.... ... why in the world I want to let you in back?... after me for a time sure u get bored and dump me ...scare I become a 'thing' for your friend to talk about you... what you care is yourself. Miss me, a big fake la..... but I still love you.. and treating all this is my wrong... why?

Please Kin..take over your emotion and do not let it happen again .... haiz..
Why everything have to happen like this... It is not I'm hoping for anyway...
Thanks to everybody who cares.. but I really don't know what to do

Happy CNY & Valentine along ~

2010-02-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

The first day of Chinese New Year, should be a happy and wonderful day for everyone who celebrate it and with conjunction of Valentine Day~ especially with the present of the love ones beside them.....

As for me, I don't really felt the atmosphere as I felt very lonely yet it is quite sad as there is nothing I can do even with the present of relatives, I still feel lonely for the first time ever I celebrated CNY. Yet I still thinking about you... How are you?

Haiz.. I still cant stop thinking about you. Life just go on and on.

Kin

2010-02-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

I'm Kin... a silly boy who always get himself in trouble always and there is no cure to it. Your answer, may sound shaky but it is your decision. I really don't know who I'm really am. Every single night, thinking of the next day, how will it be without it. Every single moment, pretending to be cheerful, just hoping others to smile back and deep inside me is just the pain that I held inside.
I'm not like this. I should be what other people said, happy, cheerful, and enjoy life, but it seems like I'm just sad, scared and disappointed every single moment. Some friend really tried to cheer me up, but not really as I don't like to drag my friend along to my own sorrow.

Hmm.... Pity

2010-02-10T01:02:00.003+08:00

I do not even know how Jay Jay got its chain stuck between the gap of its basket and tighten it...causing it to chock on it own... and if I were just one minute late, it sure go heaven T_T....... and lucky I decide to stay back at home ALONE....... if not habis...... no one were to help it .... anyhow lucky its ok...even tough I do not really know why so many blood bleeding out from its mouth.

People Like Us

2010-02-09T23:59:00.002+08:00

Come to think about the presentation that I did actually presented in front of my course mate, I feel it is quite interesting as I'm sure out of 100 .. maybe 4-5 people will choose this topic "PLU" NOT PLY OR GLU...its "P"eople "L"ike "U"s, and I do wonder how this name can be form. Maybe it the small group of PLUs that decided to name them this =D.

My outline:~~

Introduction: PLU is a term for Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transsexual (LGBT) of Singapore and Malaysia.

Content:

i. Roles

a) Top – The masculine figure of the relationship. (assertive, protective)

b) Bottom – The feminine figure of the relationship. (passive, receiving)

ii. Appearance & Attitude

a) Varied personalities, as expected in any society; straight-acting, soft, conscious of appearance, predatory, etc.

b) It is assumed one side of a lesbian relationship is more daring than the other, more openly masculine. Affirming with top role.

c) Homosexual male are usually more accepted by females than males.

d) Most are friendly, due to always trying to avoid hostility with others, due to less acceptance in society, which will be covered later .

e) Usually would try to expand their social network, though the internet/meetings, as the gay community is small and isolated in smaller towns and cities in the country.

iii. Rejection

a) Mostly disapproved by society, family and many religions.

b) With the unproven notion that homosexual men are the cause of higher rate in the spread of HIV/AIDS.

c) Due to this, PLU are not willing to expose their identities, and therefore ‘stay in the closet’.

Conclusion: It is the 21^st century. In order to further support the modernization of the world and it’s societies, people should start accepting others for who they are, and not conform to discrimination against certain individuals who are different. They are still human.

In fact I did admit myself as a PLU as I'm really a Bisexual in front of the whole course mate... and they got impress....and lucky I did not loses any friends =D.

As for the teacher comments....

She said I have influence of mother tongue.. Do I speech like a Chinese? Maybe .. and I score 24/30 .. not bad for a loud voice and interesting topic that got all attention. Anyhow , I do not feel disgusted when I admit that I'm PLU.... as I'm so open minded..... Not that open . =D

Thank to Joe helping me in this topic too....
Zen I did mention you in my presentation... you're famous already.

Stars~

2010-02-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

Each star i fold, I actually thinking back the past. Sweet and bitter memories mixed along make me feel how silly am I when I was young. When I was a kid, each star I fold perfectly make me feel so happy ... and will get over excited with it.... and repeat the same scenario when I did it again and again XD..

It was so cute that time.....
Now each stars I fold may have a message inside, its like I'm treating it as a locket to keep my trouble away and it does help me feel better after writing the feeling down on a strap of paper and just fold it on.. making me feel much more ease up.

Sometimes the stars I fold with meaning.. I will just give it out even it carries painful memories of mine to my friends and who knows, they won't open the stars rite =D and the memories just go off like that.

The left hand of Nekhbet ( 4 Chalices ) ( Upright )

2010-02-02T02:24:00.002+08:00

Yeah my daily tarot , which mean a good day , or better still good luck . Went out with my parent to check my undang ceramah expire or not... but sadly it does~ just a day back = =", I didn't feel anything but my dad gave me lecture...and he asked me ...money grow on tree? XD... If that became reality, I think the whole world will not suffer from poverty. Yet I don't really have a appetite to have breakfast along =D... Therefore, I didn't actually take my breakfast well....

After that .... Sure go back home =D...and bath...listen to Lady GaGa... Bad Romance ( Electro House remix ) and it was cool....the way how the Deejays remix the song... awesome... and hunting down my handphone along.... It seems like my handphone love to hide itself from me .... so sweet ...
And yes... I found it...... under my bed.....and it's time to go ouT! ...to Wangsa Maju just to cut hair =D... and plan to go Subang.... ... which took like half an hour to reach KL Sentral and another 45 min to wait and ride that damn slow KTM = ="

When reach, there is a guy named Shahnon (let assume he is an orange) ...and the orange actually planned want to hang out together...since we just know online... if my parent know about this sure will kena lecture from them again.......... for maybe 15 till 30 minutes. Well that orange...drove an orange car..... and we got a bit of problem deciding where to go next, ( that orange should know well more then me~)

And decided... that big big lion,......with the pyramid... (Sunway Pyramid = = if you can't figure it out), and we just walk around.... ... like and orange and a human XD! and decide where to eat~...
The orange 'said' that he will bring me go eat bone tea meat...... but in the end turn out to me Mc Donalds ...but anyway I do enjoy the lovely Sundae Strawberry ~ love it so much

After enjoying my lovely Sundae Strawberry ( I did forget what was I doing at Sunway when I enjoying) then orange decided to watch a movie..... and I wondering what movie to watch.... as I watch mostly already XD~but then lucky we both haven't watch tooth fairy~ and we booked a time.... which leave around half hour free for us to wonder around in the arcade..... we play a shooting game...which i don't even know what to shoot ... and an unsure versus fun game..... we draw =D (not to mention that my finger was hurt during the process..maybe it's orange dirty tricks )and than..time for the Tooth Fairy... There was a lady... who keep stepping on my shoe along in the cinema F.Y.I..... either she flirting or she nuts =X.

Then we plan to walk.... but orange wanted to steal some candy....so I "accompany" him there along =D......and after his crime.... he ran out of juice and need to restock .... and somehow we planned to go to the mamak stall (which i forgotten which area ). While on the way, the orange went to hunt down his friend while I get myself some air XD.

And when the orange drove his car... and he call his father...... so sweet talk to each other. . . as the "son" talk so loud... and i assume if someone is outside the car... i guess he/she could hear it very well XD and the orange drove us to a .. let assume medium grade mamak stall~.. he order the same as me..just that he has an extra egg!~ My dad did called.... and ask me where am I..... (ps ... parent will not know the location of me) as they want to go to IKEA...... CNY shopping ~=D

And eventually the orange can drive me to IKEA.... =D how sweet rite~but we got a bit lost while we on the way~ (at least got a bit more time together...LOLZ) and after he dropped me..... orange got lost for an hour..... who knows how and why he can get lost in kepong =D

And as for me .... I followed my parent shop awhile and go back =D.....sweet~~

Maybe the card tell me, it is a good day to let go everything?... I did't think of you when I was outside....and I do realise how important is friend is now.....beside hurting my finger =X

Kin ! Kin ! wake up

2010-01-31T03:22:00.004+08:00

What does it feels like betraying someone love towards you?
What does it feels like being attach with some else whom the person you loved is with someone?
What does it feels like to be in love to someone who love you but we are not attach?
And
The feels that your lover told his/hers buddy, you're his/her ex-lover where you two are attached together?

The feeling that the relationship is at risk, getting back, and breaks off again.... tired, disappointed.
And even though broke, we still keep in touch .... as close as what we use to do when we are together. I am getting nut day by day, all this memories, hurting me day by day, I can't just seems to let go of you anymore but I have to face the fact that there will be no more YOU in my life... maybe forever if you found someone who is way better than me... sure you will find, I'm disgusting, useless, selfish, and even crazy... sure you will feel uncomfortable when I'm around. Funny

What am I doing acually?

2010-01-21T02:44:00.004+08:00

When I first enter this circle, there are a lot of thing that I didn't know at all.....and slowly till now, the past may be effecting my lifestyle now. I always feels that I'm a loner .....among a society, I don't know am I doing the right things?...I guess not.... I keeps on separating myself away....

After UPSR , I pick up smoking ...thanks to my brother who left his cigarettes lighted outside...when sending him to Nilai Collage Hostel... and eventually I smoke till ....let say awhile ? and I stopped .. cause I been coughing out black stuff but i started back... around last year...and guess what it helps me in reducing nose bleeds... and I don't know how it does...and until now I'm am just waiting for a side effect... lolz

When I was ....15... where internet was so amazing... everything can be found online...but not as fast and rich information as now ...everyday gaming ,.....RYL O2Jam.....blah blah blah...and websites... from that very moment, I meet someone new......well bring me out and played me....and then I realize it was not a good habit ...therefore I just ignore that animal.....

after that i met vampi... well vampi was good in entertaining ... yet things changes... or maybe i just fell in a puppy love stage ... actually i can still remember the moments we spend together... and i really treasure it very well... one of my best memories in life actually...beside it was also my first time traveling so far by using public transport .... but sadly.... it ended..

well no need to say who is after vampi.... that person after vampi was just playing me again... and did things behind my back ....always... and did with my pet brother ... well although is disappointing.... life have to move on right?

i going skip some .. cause i cant really tell all in here ...=D
maybe come overnight my house...i may tell you as bed time story,,,

then come...panda......................well basic things i call panda is that... you know panda got 2 big eye bags =D so cute~...keke well panda said.... maybe at my birthday will end ...i actually stun and did not know what to do...as there is a person that panda still wants and needed....which is the ex......whom i seeing in class quite often

= ="

Yet now , it is you, i cant really describe how special you are in here, words cant just say how great you are in my eyes, yet i will soon lose you.....forever....

18 / 1 / 2010

2010-01-18T16:35:00.002+08:00

Though you may be happy as you get a new husky, your smile still remain in my soul. When you smile I keep thinking that I'm just a ussless yet can't help you smile more. I know that some part of you needs me but your memories just keep hunting ..and keeps on hunting till you choose to let go of me part by part.

I just think, maybe when you get another, it may helps to let go me fully, but I don't seems to understand. Why does a perfect relation have to end just by a few words. I'm 19 this year yet I felt so useless.. in studies.. in life...and in you. I never blame myself as I'm the one who cause all this to happen. My past have been always hunts me to dare me to do so but when I just betray your trust in me, I felt wrong.... very wrong....is like the pain in me that will never be forgiven at all.

I'm now blogging in your room, looking at you sleeping soundly....so cute, beautiful.. but did you know that I cried at this very moment? I held you warm hand .. look at your silly sleeping face.. and just cry just right beside you. I never intend to tell you so as i just don't want you to suffer more because of me.

I know you will be very unhappy if you will to see me cry beside you. I shouldn't have cried too, but I can't help it. All this memories hunts me deeper and deeper every single moment.

As I smoke outside your house, I feel... why does this thing have to be imperfect for you?...holding back my tears .. and it was raining.... wind blew towards my direction... and what am I thinking is just you. Only you who I need the most everysingle second of my action

Will I ? Will I Not?

2010-01-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

Was it just yesterday, or always? Do you still love me, or just want me? Or it is just to satisfy your needs?
Why does these unanswered question keeps popping out from my mind? I should be focusing on my exam but then, YOU ,
each time I see you , I feel weak, lost, and just want you only.
Yet I do know that it is just temporary that I can feel you till you found someone else... soon..

Time To Move On?

2010-01-06T06:49:00.003+08:00

You said it, you don't love me anymore, so there is no reason for me to soften my heart for you anymore. Let the memories be the past, even though it is hard to let it go.

GaGa Dream == ?

2010-01-04T21:47:00.003+08:00

I still need you,
I still miss you,
Your smell,
Your looks,
Your voice,
Like what I dreamed today, funny Lady GaGa was singing Bad Romance in front of me,
You know that I want you, You know that I need you....
Rah Ra Ah Ah~

Haiz just a dream can freak me out, yet it just reminded me how much I do love you.
I'm now chatting with you while you didn't notice that I'm crying along. Each time I see you, face you, every single word came out from my mouth or typed to you feels like a stab in my heart. Wondering why? Why do all this thing have to comes to an end while we can be stable to be together.

How long more do I need to suffer? Yet, each time I glance back the memories of us, I felt happy and secured yet suffer when I face reality.

9 - Wands, The Golden Scarab

2009-12-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

YES I DO PLAY TAROT, and please do not bug me to read it for you as I'm still a noob in reading tarot. Every morning I will sayang my cards then take one piece out and READ~ it was always a guideline for me to start off my day ... maybe carefully. =D

It was so happen that was the day I call it off the relationship again, seriously..... maybe?
The Golden Scarab appear to be the guideline for the day. This card carry the meaning of suspension or intuition of danger. I was thinking of our relation of course, and yet soon in that evening i call our relation off..... you're bored, same goes to me.

Today I woke up late and went for my Materials Science class late.......for the 9th time or more?
I never keep track of it anyways, and with 4 reports haven started, 2 incomplete reports (which went circulating around the class) and 2 complete reports that need to be submitted by tomorrow.... yet I am here blogging, chatting and even Facebooking.

Time for reports..... ( 2 more ^^v) Nitez

29 / 12 / 2009

2009-12-29T22:32:00.004+08:00

Failure is one of the most common thing happen to me always. Yet each time we get back and break, we don't seem to realize the mistake we did. But as for today, I call it off, I guess forever? or soon. You keep saying that you needed me, yet get bored of the relationship, though it's my fault, yet you keep blaming me for everything even though you FUCKING DID IT YOURSELF.

I losses myself, my friends, my time for you. Yet what did I get in return? A break up? I actually thinks that we will be better in future but you said, memories hunting you... and yet keep using it to dump me aside , and when you are so damn down , you came back to me, and soon dump me again, making me look stupid in front of my friends.

I just wants to ask you this;

Am I a just a TOY that was bought from SOMEWHERE CHEAP that became BORED to you?

You are so selfish and only cared about yourself neglecting what does other feels. Everything must do it YOUR way, what you did is ALWAYS RIGHT, and IF NOT you will be mad even for a small matter. You don't even let anything goes into your mind when you lost your stupid TEMPER, and this keep on making me thinks that you just have not reach the maturity level yet, still a small kid who will get upset when lost a toy.

You got back with me YESTERDAY and today I call it off, as you said... you got bored. You don't even need me when you got someone else there. So what for I accepted you and have to suffer later on. Some more I do not even have friends to trust and share all my problems to, as I keep all in me. Yet all this problem now can be shared trough my blog since I made it into private , not much people will notice my blog anyway~

27 / 12 / 2009

2009-12-27T13:04:00.002+08:00

I miss you,
I need you,
I love you?

It is true that we both need each other?
I felt it is strange when we are now apart
You don't trust me anymore
What the meaning of LOVE
Where there is no trust left.

I thought before Christmas eve, we can get back together
Celebrating Christmas together
But all these is just a fantasy which did not happen
You were bored in the relationship
Memories hunting you
Why do you still wants me back
When you can't let all this go?

It is you wants me to be with you?
And ignore all my friends for you?
We are not together as you told your friends
When you chat with your new friend
So why bother to care me?
Let me have my life back
So I can really be myself back
A freethinker.

You said you don't want to contact me
Cause I don't want to follow your order
To me,
Although it is hurting,
I felt that ARE you really mature?
In Love?
If even you need me,
I will try not to let me need you anymore
I'm really scared of repeating history again.

2009-12-07T04:03:00.002+08:00

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Stupid me

2009-11-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

Ever since I got back with you again,
I felt myself has changed in the way of thinking.
Why I keep on thinking that there is something is blocking us.
Yet you keep on going out with your friends,
And ignored me.
At the end,
It make me jealous
And we argue ....
My role just like a girl... izzit?
But when I think back,
DO WE REALLY SPENT TIME TOGETHER WELL?
I don't really think so.
I always wanted to walk around a park,
Me and you,
During the night.
Peace
But I didn't get such walk for so long.
I want to watch movie with you,
But in the end you watched with someone else,
And I don't want to waste your money to accompany me,
As I used to be a loner in the cinema when I'm sad.

Now I felt something different with me,
It's like my emotions,
I can't control it anymore,
Can't fake out emotion well to cover up,
Can't think of my future anymore,
It's like I gave up my life.
Honestly, I enjoy your accompany,
But at the same time,
I am suffering.

07 Oct 2009

2009-10-07T02:18:00.003+08:00

This moment, I will just try to be myself.
To hold on, continue hide my emotions,
where I will be no more be with you anymore,
all this while, i been so excited about you being around me,
and also worry,
of what?....
Hurting you again,
I should have not appear back into your life,
I should have not contact you that moment,
If i can , i would like to travel back in time,
stopping myself from sending a simple message,
that ruins both of our life,
even i still cant forget you that moment,
i believe that when i see your happy face,
i will too be happy together even though we aren't together
why? from yesterday i didnt cry...
and now i cant even stop crying?
why i cant always share the exact feeling that i facing to you and other?
im such a failure .... the biggest fool on earth..
i love you...
i miss you...
i need you...
but i know, there is other whom are better then me and can make you much more better then you being with me....
im so blur now...
help me

My Today

2009-09-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

It's a boring day for me
Yet a moody day
I feel like crying now
I don't even know what to do next
I failed to express my feelings

~(No Idea)~

2009-09-07T11:34:00.004+08:00

Free day?
Nop,

Renovation interrupted my sweet sleep again.. and I'm freaking hungry rite now.
Too hungry until I don't even know what to do next.
Study?.. lazy la....
Actually I have no intension to score my subjects,
As long I pass the semester, I'm ok with it.
I don't really care much about it,
Cause MY OWN PERSONAL problem.
Sometimes I don't even sleep and waste my time doing nothing online,
Slumber around
And even damaged my lifestyle
Very rare people will notice the change in me
I assume non will notice it XD~

Hey any recommended sleeping pill?
I guess I might need one some day =D

Just a dream

2009-09-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

When I was sleeping with YOU.
I dream of a month, December
Which was my favorite month of each year.
Not just because of my birthday...
Cause it is a free and easy month for me.

It was raining and cool breeze enter my house free and easy,
Everything was green,
As in my garden,
Plants in my room,
It was a perfect green house,
With various plants,
Green, My favorite color,

And siting on the couch,
It was you,
You were beautiful,
No one can compare what I seen,
Your beauty from inside till it shown,
Clearly against my naked eyes.

You told me something,
That really make me gay,
My mum standing there,
Speechless,
Looking at her son,
Together with you,
The joy that spread out,
Was a great news for my family,

Then I woke up,
And think back,
I was just a dream,
But I realize,
It can be true,
I and you together,
Till the end.

DamN YOU flu~

2009-09-05T00:50:00.002+08:00

This is the ever 1st time i'm having such flu during exam period ....
quite fun..
actually i more curious of what colour that H.E. ( HUBUNGAN ENTIK ) will be printed out and i might be quarantine for having such flu XD

Oh well if that happen i wish the whole DMT1 follow along~ XD

Lately my house renovation.... the noises non-stop flowing...drilling... trowing..and even shouting...and barking ( that is my chiwawa doing renovation in his cage )

My love still loyal to you..pingu.. but lately i felt something different in between us.. is like.. the feeling that i suppose to share with you have gone after you said something to me. its hurts me a lot... until now but i hid this feeling from you as i know you won't read my blog nor notice it

every time you were beside me.. i felt secure , happy , glad that you are here with me...
but why at that same time,
i felt cold and thinking when will it happen again?
that the answer i been looking for...
but yet i'm afraid to reveal it as i'm afraid knowing that i will lose you that moment i know that answer.

Flu Flu~ aww first time ever get a wonderful flu~
today i wish wont enter quarantine exam room or i will just sleep there for HE and later on resit for that paper~ XD

IT THE 9TH WEEK!.....what am i still doing =="

2009-07-24T00:38:00.003+08:00

9th week of sem 1 in college life =D
still.. i'm wondering what did i done..
i enjoy more then i study = ="
that is a real fact..

i pity someone...
for a far-distance relationship really suffering ..
depends on both of them ....
if one decide to end...
bye bye the 'attach status' at facebook XD!

Why am i so random today.......
i been thinking ..and thinking.... and listening song..
pop...to rock...and even jazz ...
found in my hardrive =="

VIruS found ~ deleted

Porn found ~ hidden in some folder

Picture found ~ soon to be uploaded in facebook

== what am i crapping today

HEY MY CARD READER SPOILT... kris...can you buy for me =D

As time past by = ="

2009-07-09T02:48:00.002+08:00

Yeah if you were wondering another emotional post...i might think it is 50-50 true =D
years passed by damn fast, as i learnt quite some stuff...

but why i just cant get any better then the past of me? college life quite fun, and also fustrated as more and more assignments are coming in...........yes...i may did the most in my group...but only 2 of us..and i know that my partner will face trouble if he does it..so i take the risk of doing his part... so that it would be easier for him...i'm still kind ==" but i can be evil as i want... if i really wan...
beside, being a treasurer is also 30% survive ==" as no one will listen to me.... cause if i open my mouth..they know what i want...

im the youngest in the class...=D...err but i am not being called as a kid =X.... pity that someone among my course mate being called as kid...well he is quite cute too and have a funny character...(ps...i not gay)

Pingu... i still love you XD...after all i did wrong..you still forgive me...and i dint even manage to improve myself well...haiz...i just wish i can be the perfect one for you..............

hey kirs........i miss you XD

Tomorrow is .......some college mass call =X

2009-05-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

Yup, mass call....... and I wonder what shall I do there ?
Went out with pingu again...this time shopping time =D...
What we buy is non of your concern =D...
But in the end we just do nothing at home ....
blah blah skip this part =D

Well this morning ( as in 4 AM ) there is a new desktop...meant for my father...way much more high tech then my current desktop ... so nice, so cool, so interesting but still i loved my own desktop set..no matter how worst it is now, cause I been using it for a lot of own thing.... entertainment, work , pleasure and more. Moreover, I finished watching season 4 of prison break....and I feel a bit scary.. brain tumor...nose bleed....hey I always nose bleed....ever since form 4 .....

(Interrupted by pingu call.....really a fat pig....sleep again)

after that fear hunt me.....out of the sudden I felt like hunting a song to hear...and a friend of mine gave me wrong title.......as i only know the chorus part of the song....and cost me 4 hours hunting that song in youtube, baidu and qihoo... yes it is a chinese song...=D and I'm a banana that why it take so long for me to hunt a chinese song = =" . I should use that amount of time to sleep...much more better...but what to do? my elder bro fought with his girlfriend and now apart for a moment - -" that why he is back home and booming his love story song - -

dotz

2009-05-14T17:22:00.002+08:00

great I can't sign in my Live Messanger account at my own computer ... how sad = ="
assume that no one miss me =D
just went to TarC and toke a form =D
want to change course =X
and now just bugging how to sign in my msn = =

Hey ! = ="

2009-05-14T10:48:00.004+08:00

Dewar's Awesome Foursome Challange 2009.....
what do I know from there?
free whisky , goodies.... and some money from there =D
*Ops I'm underage to drink , but who cares...lets drink =D and don't be caught by parent !

well yesterday I went back to P.T.u.T ...
and what? ...... Tilak Ane asked me that I still alive ka?
like around 6 months I never went back there....
cause too lazy to go there...
and also don't feel like going there...
cause remind me of some event =D
Don't want tell you what happen =X

Busy dated booked =
1) 29 May (Fri) - Templart Park
2) 20 June (Sat) - Orna ( I'm not going this one...I going P.D)
3) 10 July (Fri) - Tropicana
4) 15 Aug (Sat) - Bukit Jambul (Penang here I comes =D)
5) 12 Sept (Sat) - Plam Resort (Johor)
6) 2 Oct (Fri) - Gading Raya (Jakarta =X)
7) 30 Oct (Fri) - Dalit Bay ( KK, I must go =D)
8) 20 Nov (Fri) - Kota Permai
AND
9) 17 Dec (Thu) - KL Golf & Country Club

HelLo BloGy

2009-05-13T17:02:00.002+08:00

Yes I din't update my blog.... quite sometimes..
Certain people bugged me before... and I ignored it..
Cause... I'm so damn lazy to type eversince my 16th Birthday passed..

What else?....
A lot things I learnt,
Mistakes that I committed,
Things that I din't wish to do, but I did it.

and more?

Anyway, I have a dog now.... a chiwawa...called JJ
dun't even know why my little brother named it that way.
but who cares? As long it stay away from my shoes,
I will be fine =D

1. . . 2 . . . 3 . . .

2008-12-14T02:34:00.002+08:00

i kinda blur,
very blur. . .
keep repeating myself,
1.. 2.. 3.. where are you?
this question i keep asking to myself,
from the start,
to find where are you?..
penguin.......
i so blur now ..
very blur.....
where are you?
i know i hurt you a lot from past,
but then i also suffuring from my mistake.
you said you need time,
i will wait for you,
but i scare,
will i last?

when chatting with someone

2008-11-25T19:12:00.001+08:00

So blog...miss me?

2008-11-22T18:38:00.003+08:00

ever since i addicted to castle fight.( a war3 map )
i forgot that i have a blog XD
+examination is going on...
SPM.... (until 1st dec T_T)
oh yeah ... obama won the vice-presidential for america..
replace that bushy soon XD
but that is not my main consern..
i going to miss school life T_T
my friends and foods...and even my teachers(not my math teacher, she a f"cking b"tch..)
and for SPM
BM i did well
english i ok-ok.... where my story might look weird
math.. if they dun increase the marking graph...i may get A1
add math i pass...(hopefully)
moral... hopefully i get B3
sejarah i pass i will be happy XD
chemistry (or CHAMistry ..) i will pass!!

account est and physics !! next XD
hope i can get A1 or A2 for account and physics! or i rather die ..

Oh Damn....

2008-10-25T22:40:00.002+08:00

about 5 month... i stopped DOTA
and just only i finish a DOTA game on Garena..
and i just realise
that..
i'm a freaking noob!
this because my ex complain that i keep dota..
and don't like me dota...
and i stopped ..
just that don't want to hear any nagging from my ex..
stupid and annoying..
and even try to force me CABAL...
and now ... haizz..
SOMEONE teach me how to play dota back T_T..
i know no one will teach me....
and my small brother even better..
even he know the basic need for the two new hero in dota T_T..
argh!!!!..
oh....
i just have less then 17 days more before spm...
why should i care about dota...
maybe i don't care about SPM XD!!
STUDY LA JOHNNY!

KRIS WEIRD PLAN OF ..killing herself

2008-10-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

tufckdup says:
bettre buy me the tali guitar
tufckdup says:
i oredi gnna cry d
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
i know u wan desperate to gantung diri
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
but by guitar nylon stringss?
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
got pore
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
rope*
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
wires
tufckdup says:
ceh
tufckdup says:
guitar nylon strings
tufckdup says:
can putus jari u know
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
even ur phone charger wire ,a
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
so u wan putus kepala
NeKo -&- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
or kelapa
tufckdup says:
phft

did i?

2008-10-16T01:48:00.003+08:00

did i hurt you today?
did i make you smile?
did i disappoint you?
did i irritate you?
did i make you angry?
did i make you cry?
did i?....

these are the only few things i always think
day by day
i can't just stop thinking of these things
except when i'm asleep ..
even when i'm asleep... without my dream catcher..
i will dream all weird stuff...
like past 2 days... i slept in the t.v. hall..
i dreamt something that worried me
till now
and just yesterday...
i dreamt something very weird...
but i do not recall any parts of it well...
but it all related to one person...
who is my penguin...

i know that i did hurt penguin before..
maybe that the doubts i facing...
will i hurt penguin again?
NO...and Never WILL!

just to log in....blogger

2008-10-12T20:37:00.003+08:00

yup it take around 20 minutes to log in my account...
not because of the internet connection speed...
but I FORGOTTEN MY PASSWORD AGAIN..
great.... happen always....
i failed 3 subject again ....
Sejarah...
Moral...
and
Add Math..
well... it kinda normal for me ...but
add math..T_T.
nevermind.... i have holidays before my spm come..

facebook ---> ? how to use it...
i got bored with friendster.... now facebook..
i too lazy to add anyone also...
it a waste i register both account...

Didn't expected!

2008-10-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

yup..penguin again don't dare to enter my house...
but instead ...went out McD for lunch ...
and bought me something.......

don't try to steal my penguin gift ..
if you want..
you can go wangsa maju livin cabin buy...XD
but i wonder ...does penguin have enough money to use = ='
anyway...
tomorrow i wont be going to school...
not because lazy or want to 'ponteng'
i just want to see my bro shop = =...
in kepong... brem mall......i guess... not brew mall as i stated somewhere ..
and the good news he met an accident... and we wasn't informed untill his friend call one of my family member - -..but everything OK liow.....
he can walk ... and walk slow - -"
...

boring again.....dotz
and my table.... full of wires...
almost half of them i trew them away..
left this only :

wierd..

2008-10-04T13:17:00.002+08:00

when i just woke up..
i feel something strange...
first is the blackout .. which turn off my air-cond.... my computer and the internet !
then a strange dream... don't really remember what i really dream of..
but it is something that involve me and someone.
so blur..
then no mood - - for no reason ..
and i spent around 12 min trying to enter TD room 1... which is always a full room --....
then a sms.. but after that sms i feel much better
and then when i called penguin...the pig... i just blur out suddenly
haizzzzz.............

.....my stuff T_T

2008-10-01T13:47:00.001+08:00

today my cousins come over and overnight...
and my cousins are girls = =....
pity my stuff....
just now they rape my Cj7 ...pity it..
now all the fuwa dolls missing -.-"
haizz......just now they toke my pendrive withouti realise that my pendrive went missing..
and i search my whole room for it..
now my room so mess up XD
and i go switch on cartoon for them..
so that they will quitely sit down and watch...

YOU CALL ME A CHEATER?

2008-09-30T01:56:00.003+08:00

FU*K LA...
THIS THE 1ST TIME EVER SOMEONE CALL ME A CHEATER IN ANY ONLINE GAME I PLAYED
SHIT HIM NOOB DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO PLAY AND DON'T UNDERSTAND SIMPLE ENGLISH
AND CAN CALL ME A CHEATER!?
FU*K THAT STUPID BRAINLESS PLAYER KNOW ONLY POINT FINGER
IF I KNOW HIM OR SHE IN REAL LIFE
I GRANTEE HE OR SHE WILL BE BACK HOME HALF DEAD
DAMN FU*KING NO MOOD TO PLAY ANY GAMES
AND I ALWAYS HOST GAME THAT HE JOIN
I WILL MAKE SURE HE SUFFER WHEN HE JOIN IN ANY GAME WHICH I JOIN
NITE

care for mother earth

2008-09-30T01:44:00.003+08:00

yup.... this word is always been spread out by media all around the world
but who really cares?
they just want to be either famous, rich, and greedy.
but remember ignoring the main source of this god creation may bring harm not only to everyone, to everything that are sitting under and above it.
everyday the world either got new record of strange weather
and climate changes
this may sound lame for all those out there but when you really put aside everything and start thinking the effect
you might get frighten
therefore please care for mother earth

Blank

2008-09-30T01:02:00.003+08:00

just wondering...a thing,
thinking of it day by day,
but didn't realise what is the reason,
for me to discover what am i thinking,
every time when i feel one kind,
i always think of it,
but,
when can i stop thinking of it?
why did i do it the first place?
lost of my self-confident?
or just wan to have fun?
i feel like i'm not right always,
when i am beside you,
i feel it,
feel strange and secured at the same time,
for what i did,
you forgive,
but for what you did,
i blame it on me,
i'm the one who cost all this misery,
from the start,
and i willing to change,
just for you,
cause i can't afford to lose you anymore,
as i did experince bad,
hurting moments when i lost you,
like a baby who lose it mother,
keep on crying,
but i did my best,
to hide all my tears,
as though i don't give a damn on it,
but deep in my heart,
the cold and painful heart,
keep pumping sending a message,
that i still need you,
to warm me up,
i need you,
sounded like i'm just a selfish person,
who just want you by myself,
and not letting you go even a metre away,
if do,
i feel that my life is unsecured,
and keep on falling,
i'm sorry,
i know,
sorry is just a word,
which can't change anything,
but now i learn my mistake,
and you,
only you,
is who i need.

tagged by nick......(someone force me do it - -)

2008-09-29T22:00:00.001+08:00

Tags? what thats?.
who i wonder?

1.Penguin
2.FattyKris
3.Pinapple
4.Joel
5.GarySnail

- -"

here goes the question

Questions.

1. How did you meet 1?
- Hmm... someone intro 1 to me online...

2. On a scale of 1 - 10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?
- 10.

3. How long have you known 4?
- around 1 year.

4. How do you know number 3?
- same school...and she like eat alot...(can fit in a garbage bin XD)

5. Where's 5?
- at home watching porn... i guess....he the porn supplier in the tuition center.

6. A fact about number 1?
- love me ....... a lot!!! XD

7. Who is 4 going out with?
- with his gay friend i guess XD

8. What does 1 do for a living?
- follow the mother and bug her XD

9. Would you live with number 3?
- hmm i prefer live with number 1

10. What do you like about number 2?
- too emo!!! XD and more emo story to read!

11. Do you miss number 5?
- nah...i call him for dota or td...

12. Would you make out with number 4?
- NO.... not my type anyway XD

13. What's your opinion on number 2?
- TALK ALOT oF CRAPS!!!!!like me XD

14. What's your favourite memory with number 5?
- lost in td XD

15. What will you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
- GOD PLEASE BLAST ME OFF

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
- in game and tuition..yes....other no..

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
- her mum might roast me naked

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
- not so...

19. Who have you known the longest?
- Number 2 and number 5

20. What will happen if number 1 and 5 have a relationship?
- GOD PLEASE BLAST ME AGAIN!

21. How often do you talk to 1?
- EVERYTIME!!!

22. What about 2?
- always bug me to blog....

23. Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
- oh please....

24. Would you go on a date with number 5?
- if he a girl i might be...

25. Do you dream about number 2?
- i dremt of a tuna fish...but not as fat as number 2

26. What did no.4 did to you that you can never forget?
- HE DID SOMETHING ON THE WEBCAM!!!

27. What have you done for/to 1 that the person never forgets?
- hehe be the no 1 in number 1 heart

28. What's 3's hobby?
- eat and merajuk!

TAG:
- FATTYKRIS
- GARY
- Colin
- VHISHY
- Juliowati

OMG...salad....

2008-09-29T00:32:00.003+08:00

i used to love salad.....
chicken salad...
fish salad...
pork salad...
vegetable salad...
organic salad...
and more...

but now..... the word PHOBIA can best replace it now...
everyday keep eating the same thing...(got some reason....but i won't expose my family issue....NOT BECAUSE OF MY FAMILI IS POOR !! IF YOU EVER THINK THAT, I'M SO GOING GET YOU!)
the same thing......day by day
and poof...
phobia...

this the first year ever i ate that much amount of salad.....
in my life!
but whoever wants to go on diet...
maybe it good thing..
but don't be too over...

Pain?....i just know one thing...

2008-09-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

HUNGRY!!! that is the only think i feeling now..
and do miss someone (later i scare someone will nag me)
don't even ask me why am i hungry..
it's not i want to torture myself..
but this METAL AND SPRING IN MY MOUTH KILLING ME..

hungry.....
and even worst yesterday before i slept
i go cilok my mum recipes book..
and have a look...
now ... the image of the food i saw in the book
just appear T_T...pity me

try getting hold of not thinking any food now....
relax....relax....relax....I CAN'T!!!!!!

dotz.......

【兄弟嘛..】Rahaal: aiyo....when can become visual kei. so fat. try harder says:
who is your first then?
NeKo -Password Confused- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
ar
NeKo -Password Confused- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
first?
【兄弟嘛..】Rahaal: aiyo....when can become visual kei. so fat. try harder says:
cutest
NeKo -Password Confused- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
lol
NeKo -Password Confused- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
of course me
NeKo -Password Confused- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
wakakakka
【兄弟嘛..】Rahaal: aiyo....when can become visual kei. so fat. try harder says:
=.=
【兄弟嘛..】Rahaal: aiyo....when can become visual kei. so fat. try harder says:
other than you?
NeKo -Password Confused- PeNgUiN!!!!!!!! says:
my cj7

hehe... someone asked me this question so i answer.... it while i blogging XD
don't feel i'm 'paiseh' ...... this is reality anyway ...XD
but to tell you the truth... my penguin is still the cutest for me XD

WHO THE HELL GREETING OUTSIDE MY HOUSE THAT LOUD !!!!

WOOT! getting ready to fail !

2008-09-25T21:23:00.003+08:00

ADDITIONAL MATHEMATIC
i hear that sound also feel one kind..
today... i having gastric and doing PAPER 2 of the devil paper..
haiz...
result --> failing (i hope not)

anyway today i skipped tuition class in kasturi..
who knows anyway..
and i was not in a good mood
just because of the two paper....
amazing..i finally realise how important is that subject ..
even now i feel one kind...... and also feel lazy (as usual 'if you know me long enough')

in conclusion,
i bug penguin and bring me out to penguin house..
sleep and have fun....
'what kind of fun is non your business' =P

and also late for PTUT class....
and back early XD

yesterday was my bad day too....
my favourite tooth been flatten at the sharp edge T_T
now become straight flat .. (like a ball of plasticine fall on the ground with high impact....impulsive force ¬.¬ physics....)

what am i feeling rite now is total blank...
and emoting dotz....
and i placed an amazing caption in my msn messanger..
and i didn't realise that there were a lot of feedback XD
!!!

hehe penguin .....
don't get angry .. later your igloo melt...
then you have no where tostay
but for you... my house gate always welcomes you...
XD!!

OpS...S

2008-09-22T23:02:00.002+08:00

penguin read my blog ......
and maybe a bit envy...
don't worry K?
still love you the most even though i told that i have someone special before
but i can tell you there is no word that i can say about you..
not that i don't love you or blah blah.... but really no words can describe about you in me..
i just want you in my life ...
without you, i suffer like a astronaut running out of oxygen in space XD..

anyway,
physics paper 1 for today was hard....
as usual..
50 question....
each one contain 3 to 5 answers..
and got to choose one only
either A,B,C,D or E...
like picking a life and death line..
for 50 times...
it is hard!?

paper 2 was easy a bit...
i guess but i was able to answer all
so happy and i did few calculation XD
so lucky..
and my chocolate finish just before the school break - -
and it is now 50 days more before my SPM come...
not nervous also..

Arrrr tuna... i blog adi XD
don't complaint i didn't blog at all already..

beside.. today i went IKEA..
not to get idea but to help my eldest bro to buy something for his new shop
in the new mall
name..
hmmmm
if i not mistaken..it is named brew mall.... something like that..
located at the exit of the round-about out from selayang and head straight .....
and pass trough the tesco selayang...
and it was boring there....as not all shop are fully open yet!

I called Maxis Hotline...

2008-09-15T01:27:00.005+08:00

just want to ask a question,
it eat up all my credit ....(1.94 ringgit)
but anyway i soon going to change into DIGI anyway,
maybe,
but i really wish can maintain HOTLINK number,
because of some reason.... (don't want to tell you)
but haiz,
eat up alot when wan to contact penguin,
haiz.

Change your telco, but keep your mobile number.

bloggie...

2008-09-15T00:41:00.002+08:00

what if you use something that been used before by your lover's ex
and by using it may help to contact each other easier.

i don't know what am i feeling now.
tomorrow i got trails, on account (i not sure i am taking or not)
and i still be like this.
sad, angry, jealousy?
one word, haiz...

becouse of my mistake,
i got to suffer some part to gain happiness izzit?
i don't want to suffer this pain anymore.
sometimes i really feel i'm not the right one for penguin.
yeah...
it's a normal feeling for everyone i guess,
i hope i can just pull out from this 'thing'

i so blur now,
i don't feel like sleeping now,
i just blur,
i don't even know how to say it out to penguin..
as i dun want hurt penguin,
but i sense that penguin is not feeling well,
haiz.

-_@'''

2008-09-05T00:49:00.003+08:00

ARGH! ...
F*** THE PTUT TUITION CLASSES IM TAKING NOW..
i wish i can just stop T_T.
but i have been there like around 6 solid years..
well i know them well and they know me well
like brothers ^^
but sometime .. too over
exspecially additional mathematic and mathematic..
honesty...(i don't dare to be so open when i am in tuition)
that tutor don't know how to teach addidional math well..
man ... i always feel bored and try to get the right key to understand what he teach!
and come worst to worst..... my friend will ask me to teach and explain to him IN DETAIL when i trying to GET MY ASS OUT FROM THE MAZE....
..
now i am in deep ship i guess...
so blur....
so lost....
and i am envy of something...
but i don't even know what or why..

my tarot reading give me strange result..
King Of Wands
9-Chalices
10-Pentacles
6-Pentacles
10-Wands (upside down)
and Queen Of Sword (upside down)
..
what i know is ...
'i need someone to retain back my satisfaction or physical well-being and some gratification to obtain a sucess to overcome my dificult characteristic'

well i dun know what that mean acually XD..
but some part i feel like it true...
i am a type who people cant really understand me..
even me..

-_@'''

2008-09-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

last post on 30 august 2008...where 31st?

2008-09-01T23:30:00.002+08:00

Merdeka...
Negaraku....v.2.0 (if you play GG client...in D.O.T.A RPG Room 1(Malaysia) you will see it..)
Najib special skill....-----> FINGER TO DEATH !!!!
and beside..
31st august.... went out ..
1) Tuition
2)JLN Pudu Indian Temple (Tuition anual examination prayers..i always go except last year)
3) Pavillion (bored!)
5) La Queen ( don't even ask me to go there again....i anti it)
6) Mamak....( the guy infront of me knew me..but i don't know until i chat with him just now !)
7) Penguin house (DON't FlY to youR ImAginaTion WoRLd thank...)

beside...i send a SMS... to my mum....and guess what
IT HELPS ALOT !!! (solve 50% only) - -
whether it last or not i don't even care ...

31 august...
sleep until 4p.m... woke up penguin fetch me back ..
and play GG Client!! the whole day and night XD
till 6...

1st september
woke up at 7....am - - One hour sleep......
went out eat bakuteh...but HAIZZZ
i can't bite hard today... damd spring in my mouth ...
and i went back and sleep again till 11am ..someone called...
'ARE YOU COMING OR NOT' = = " ..
disturbmy sweet dream T_T....

12.45..went out to kfc seri gombak (whos idea is that....wrong kfc place)
then we talk and crap and went mc donald buy something cold to eat XD

afterday went wangsa maju to meet penguin then the end for now

i lazy type XD

Even Butterfly Uses Public Transport!

2008-08-29T23:09:00.002+08:00

woke up at 10.15 in the morning ...wondering ...what is going on in school today XD!
most of my friend plans not to come school today...

SMK HILLCREST --->BORING

and the saddest part of today that my Singh friend.....grandmother passes away..
and guess what.. he was in joy as he can escape from the so called 'MOTIVATION TALK' yesterday..... stupid Singh...

and yeah..
today i went penguin house alone again by the rapid kl public transport...
and lucky me..
there are bus moving just in time XD
thinking why today im so lucky..
usually i will wait for ages..
well
basically....i go penguin house... to sleep XD most of the time..
the rest all is non of your concern
....

Tomorrow... dont know want to go prayers or follow penguin go out --"

one week holiday over...die me..

2008-08-25T01:32:00.007+08:00

there will be a few days holiday before my exam..... just one or two days only
this will be the last long school break for me .. and after that ....the longest break...
but one thing for sure...
i din't study that well XP
Went out to Sg. Wang and enter Lau Yat....
with Tuna ..and her big fat lap top which fit in just nice in my bag..
and before that trip happen.....
i fed up on someone and decided to move on without any regret...
but then i got back with penguin ..
as what my tarot reading predicted..
but there is still something bad will happen.
that might pull me back...
if i manage to overcome it , i may be forever with penguin XD
if not... total opposite i guess... (i don't wan to open this card reading)..
and i think i am suffering it now....
may take sometime for me to overcome it ALONE!
to my latest ex:

'F''K OFF MAN...MY LIFE MY DECISION...YOUR LIFE IS A BITCH AND DUN GO AROUND
TELL PEOPLE NOT TO COMMUNICATE WITH ME...little kid...even worst than
Britney....'

Okie i guess i am starting to have some emo-characteristic...
i cut my hand...but not that deep..and don't even scare of the pain there..
when i cut, i feel it helps to cover the sadness that i suffer.....even though is a stupid way...
and yeah.....Tuna and I ..criticize the way 'gays' wear in Sg.Wang.... so stupid...XP.....

Am I a good person anyway?

im hungry.......

2008-08-19T04:10:00.004+08:00

damn the guy who created vista...
need to installation cd to reformat...
..
reformatted my computer already..
and now im using one of my dad's 3 laptop.... HP Pavilion..
jealous already...
my small brother use up rm 300 for GPRS services... how nice..
even i can't afford to use a gprs service...
argh don't care about it..
well at least i know im free...
wishing that no one can control me at all
either telling where am i or what am i doing..
im blur now..
i don't even know what should i do next.....
remain?
i guess no way!..........
my stupid elder brother ....
brought back another HP Pavilion and play C.Strike..
i did play and i was a noobie that time..
as i supposed to study...
tomorrow my dad will be flying to indonesia...
work...work... with another lap top..
but i don't know how many day he will be away..
neither what will he do there too..
- don't care-
i ran out of chocolate powder....
and deleted some songs...
accidently......
anyway i don't know what to write in here..

I miss playing R.Y.L

2008-08-04T18:32:00.003+08:00

it been like few years i missed the best mmorpg game i played in my life...
every time i start playing new online game... i will get bored and eventually stop halfway...like maple (early 2007)...i stopped at level 33 ARCHER and level 30 beginner which contains..expensive in-game items(my small bro went in and steal everything i guess)... then much more ..... online game i play till lv 25 and below...
i found it very bored...
but now i already play cabal.. till lv 60 force ARCHER
and perfect world... elf ARCHER...till lv 38..
Yeah ARCHER... my favorite in-game job..
it all started from one single online game..
Risk Your Life... R.Y.L ......
i played ARCHER.. and warrior and enchanter and the last is cleric... the last i know archer is over level 80, warrior is over lv 50 wizard is lv 76 and cleric lv 65
the cleric character is the last job i played after the release of R.Y.L 2 in 2004 i guess.... from there onwards.... R.Y.L becomes a commercial server... which need to pay to play T_T...
but it doesn't stop me from buying reload point card and top it up always...till one day i really really broke.......that the time i stop playing RYL...
and usally i play RYL with my brothers...Jansen and Jonsen... we train...together
kill (Player VS Player... usally i won the most eventhough i was the lowest character in the family) each other.... trap each other... and rob each other equipment...if one of us left the ID online... but after that... we stopped.. and the only online game we ever play together that long.. is RYL beside then rangarok..... only me and my elder brother played that time... now only i and my younger brother play online game... but i stopped playing online game and shift my interest to D.O.T.A online... (now i am noob as it has been awile i stop playing cause of someone dislike me playing...)..i hope someday someone will create a new game same as RYL.... not ATLANTIC....like ts online - -" and a bit of final fantasy..

www.ryl.com.my

how many months i din't blog?....1 month?

2008-07-23T19:26:00.004+08:00

Oh yeah.. tuna... i just blogged... so u can know that i just blogged ...ROLF..
Online games...ARGH... WHAT THE HECK IM STILL PLAYING ONLINE GAME.. SOMEONE FORCE ME TO STUDY!!!..
ihatelifenow.

Worst thing worst...
i am doing my add math exercise...
and when i almost done.. i realise ..all WRONG = ="
how lucky am i... I HATE YOU LOGARITHMS..
im weak in studies now T_T..

my mum now happily talking to my elder brother friends who are here making and refurnish her beautiful room now....
and
she ask me wan to do anything to my room - -
' PLEASE LEAVE MY MESSY ROOM...I LOVE TO BE IN A MESS!' :P

Mum+Dad(Other Girl)=Divorce?

2008-07-23T18:46:00.003+08:00

lolz... just only yesterday...mum found out that dad like to FOOL around TOO much outside... with girls...and... got into big fight....and say want to divorce each other soon..
yeah... i know my dad does that....(i know even more stuff then my mum actually...'MAYBE')..
when they argue.. me just sit quietly...play online game...and chat with my lover..
and i don't give a damn if they want divorce... (cuz i knew it wont happen that early.....)
and johnsen can't non-stop sleeping happily....(he is a big idiot)
then i went in and disturb the fight.....
eventually make a big fool out of my dad.. and mum laugh behind me...
dad don't scare to scold me......if he do.... my mum guaranty that he wont be even know how to write the word 'DEATH' in chinese......so he quietly sit down and do his work...while i help my mum carring stuff... and even chat with my mum... and even pack up her jewelries ... and even wore it for fun....
what more i got a new wallet ...and no one knows that cuz i forgot that i brought it yesterday too ^^v

TODAY..
everything back to normal..
Mum+Dad(-Other Girl)=FINAL CHANCE.....
and dad even promist her to buy a ring..
WEDDING ring... as they started off with a simply ring..
at first i thought my dad have no money cuz been cheated before by a failure bunessman(my aunt's EX-husband)...(if i found him... he sure be dead soon)..
total that he cheated ..
Dad = RM 250k
Aunt = more then RM 200k and love + job...and conversion of islam too...
how pity...
but everything goes fine now...
as it already been like years ago..(hope that idiot die in any accident too)
Oh..
this is the first time i tell the root to all problem in my family that openly..
usally i will keep it to myself....
forget about that..
now i facing another problem..
too much online gaming and smsing..i don't understand why times flies that fast..
and i just calculate... if i dun study that certain subjects now
i will fail..
if i push..
Account = B
Math = A
+Math = C/B
Moral = D
Physics = D/C
English = A ... GCE= B
Chemistry = C
EST = A
History = C
B.Malaysia = B
This will be the result if i just push abit..(as what im doing now)
and now i think i better push as hard as i can...
mum knows what happen to me..
....
im thinking way too much..
my problem+studies+love+family = 101% STRESS.

i pass physics!

2008-06-22T00:50:00.002+08:00

lucky i didn't fail physics...
i heard that only 6 student in my class
passed physics papers...
excluded the school stupid marking systems
where homeworks and last papers marks are included

and the best part for today is there is no
tuition classes going on...
if it does... it will be from
9am till 3.30pm..
...

SUNDAY-22/june/2008..
i will go out with my dear dear!

wa.....bloggie...how are you..?

2008-06-20T12:18:00.002+08:00

i wonder how many days i didn't blog any rubbish here....
yeah i keep Cabaling and DOTAing...
until i forgot my dear little bloggie...
.......
the most best part is
i got someone special...
and i no need tell tuna...
cause she aready know who it is...

beside i damn piss off those people or aliens that always nudge me..
and turn offline --"...
while i Cabaling and DOTAing....
in result...
LAG

today i ponteng school !!!
my hobby...(since standard 5)
every month.. i will be missing around 5 times..
not yet pro in ponteng...!!

TUNA OUT E.S.T FOLIO!!!
fast fast do .. or deadline will poke us soon..
we still got around 22 more article to do ....
and lots of summaries...
!!!!!!

I fail! I fail!....

2008-06-11T18:43:00.002+08:00

Add Math and History...failed....
Chemistry and B.Malaysia...safe call :P
Math.... Same as Kul marks...AGAIN - -"

Today i really bengan with my class math teacher....dun know why..
her attitude...haizz... can say that she wan us to treat her like a queen .. (my feeling)... yeah....stupid queen.. - -"

beside i felt wierd the whole day ...
i don't even know why....
the feeling like missing someone..
just wanting that someone to just say hi or how are you..
but i guess that won't happen soon..

tuition now becoming SuX...
i can't understand why my tuition sir did that method...
feel like not going for his classes anymore..
but haizz
i have too...

pity me T_T

okie...my mood change...

2008-06-07T00:13:00.002+08:00

Yeah tuna... why you go mengatal go delete ur old blog again and make a new one ...
nutss!! :P..

Im LAZY!.... yeah...same as last time...
but now... i lazy to check friendster...
lazy to check my profile...somewhere (i forgot what website)
lazy to take own picture...
lazy to chat with alien...
lazy to crap...
lazy to do homework...
lazy to open any physics book...(that is a thing that you must not do)
lazy to eat... (im not dieting)
lazy to move around in the house...
lazy to flip my books...
lazy to make myself happy...
lazy to call my friends and say hi...
and more --"

well... in conclusion...
Johnathan Lam Kin Tatt of ic number 911216-14-XXXX have become lazier then the last time.

but...
now i
keep D.O.T.A.ing...
keep taking non-life objects...
keep thinking of colours...
keep thinking of economics... - -"
keep thinking of guitar...
keep thinking of what my mum say 24/7...
keep thinking of chocolate...
started studing by myself...
started wasting my money with cool stuff...(included colour)
started nagging my mum back...
started hating somebody... (well mostly he just use people...so i hate he)
started talking behind people back...
started remembering chemistry note -- ( IM NOT A PARROT!)
and most strangly...
i felt that i becoming like a E.M.O Kid ..
love be alone...
like pain...
think all types of sad and unwanted stuff...
make sad story and poem...( virus from Kristina Faye .. dangerous)
interested in drama series... OMG...

well i guess more i still haven't discover yet but i just want be myself!!
A CHILDLISH PERSON
...
and yeah...
i also started thinking of aliens too...
as they were watching us live from above...

Lolz !

2008-06-05T01:53:00.003+08:00

tufckdup says:
heee
tufckdup says:
ok ok
tufckdup says:
checking
tufckdup says:
who ngorating my cutie johnnie

LoLZ! JUST ajak me only la...dun worry ..you kan have your ~~filipino~~..OPS...
BENGALA... bf ...ma.... :P

like what people always say...
Dun't Worry...
Be Happy...

^^ belanje you starbuck's coffee okie?
not the whole klcc starbuck coffee shop = ="

up uP UP and AwaY!

2008-06-05T01:10:00.007+08:00

me: petrol price rise up 70 cents...
lady: ar really?
me: yup....now
they jamming up the road..
lady: yala...celaka punya PETRONAS

Yeah we all got the news that petrol price rise again....
up to 78 cent per litter ..
and yeah...celaka petronas.....willing to sell out malaysian petrol to other and buy back low quality petrol for us....(greedy for money - -")..
just wonder increase of petrol price....

Electricity tariff price increase
Daily usage (eg: rice) also will increase......for no reason
Public transpot fee increase
ALL INCREASE
BIG change in lifestyle
The poor can't enjoy life..

....
if i got to know the main source of this tragic increase... i am sure that i will be one of the people who will be against them...eventhough im still young....

is like WHAT THE **** ... an increase? out of no where?

Yeah today 2 way road ...become one way road...at our housing area... just to fill up petrol...
just wonder how much can they save?.. by jamming there ....engine burning petrol... and refill them... = waste of petrol + global warming...

BREAKING NEWS: The Barisan government has just announced the increase in petrol price by 78 sen at the stroke of 12 tonight. It will be a 41% jump from the previous price of RM1.92 to RM2.70 per liter. The Barisan government, it seems, is working towards gradually increasing the price of petrol to about RM4.00 or more per liter by August this year, abolishing all subsidy of this item.

..... yeah by august every single thing will change...lol... you go ahead and stay in brunei la... dun ajak me that far :P..

Ikea?....COLOURS!!

2008-06-01T21:12:00.002+08:00

yeah IKEA.... place of furniture (made in china , don't know the pine wood are real or not)
I been force to go that place... AGAIN.... haiz....
but in the end ...i gain something nice....(and i'm not going to share it)
COLOUR PAPERS!! ... finally they restock after how many months i been hunting for it...
i don't know why i rather choose IKEA colour papers then normal colour papers - -"...
and a plant...... that need little water to live....(you guys know i am one big bum)
and also some sandal wood incense stick for my room...
and basicily after shopping - -"...
we will go eat .......but i din't eat anything ... just drink teh o' ais - -"
then go back.....and play D.O.T.A....(keep losing as i get strength heros)

Bloggie.... i dun miss you at all - -"(so lame)

2008-05-24T17:45:00.001+08:00

... lol exam over already.... but still suffering - -"....
normal for all student who facing govement exam ..
yeah ... if you get low mark...you will be torture by parent...
to avoid that.... student trow away thier result...
but not until infront of my house - -".
must be a girl from titiwangsa school...
she got 20 marks- - " and the papers ended just outside my house.....
i wonder if i fail physics...chemistry...add math....(to hell with biology !!!)
i think i better just jump off the 81th floor of klcc...(does klcc have that floor?)
i think i better star study hard now = = or else i fail one by one...
OMG I REMEMBER accounts - -" im so doom now...

Exam - -" ........(Bio Time)

2008-05-22T14:16:00.002+08:00

Biology- FAIL .. WAKAKA that is what in my mind always for today...
skipped Biology and go lurk around the school........
eventually ended up in class doing add-math revision and got to be quite....
until a certain period.... i went out!......with someone .......
AND PLAY!!!
SO boring...... actually to play in school ..

TUNA I want picture T-T

2008-05-15T23:45:00.001+08:00

Today toke a lot of picture ..... of a book.....and dictionary but all in tuna cam. .- - and unfortunate her com also got problem...ZZZ

today i stay back and help for the teacher's day tomorrow --"... i was playing i guess...wakakka...

TUNA i wan picture le......

now me want go sleep... nothing to type wakaka

Exam Exam Exam.....

2008-05-14T10:04:00.001+08:00

3 weeks of exam.....wow...really eat a lot of time......
what i will do .......

1. sleep

2. still sleeping...

3. flip the book..

4. do nothing...

i dun really want to get A's for my whatever school exam..... cuz no reason ...... and i dun even like to study now days... i dun know why..

the exam hour... haizz for add math .. it is enough...but for other....it is way too long... agree?... mostly people will sleep or do whatever things ....while waiting for the exam time over... ZZZZZZZ

but for me.. i will sleep... - -"..

.................................................................................

tuna do i need to update my blog everyday ZZZ?

Yah yah... - -

2008-05-13T13:54:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah.... i will study damn hard..but dun know can get 10A1 or not :P

AND WHAT FAMILY PLANNING!!!

TUNA u should think of it ma.....

cuz you are going to product the babies !! wakakka

Ops.......i 100% fail biology for mid-term !!!

2008-05-13T12:50:00.002+08:00

wakaka..... dun care about biology.......until dun want to go to school also to sit for the biology papers !!!!

yeah i dint take bio for spm...

but then got exam for the mid-term :P

hmm so i wonder who to give the biology reference book to..

still fresh and new.....and clean ..lolx...

see still new... want? i can sell you 1/4 of the price ..
and maybe free to my close friends WAKAKA!

Never even bother to open this book... you want?

Yeah tuna.......during the 4 days school-off go watch a movie??

what wrong with me?

2008-05-13T02:01:00.003+08:00

why i cant still sleep?
haizzz feel like one kind in me....
always feel like this...
can anyone help me?

MY COMPUTER IS ALIVE!!!

2008-05-12T22:20:00.001+08:00

YEAH FINALLY I CAN USE BACK MY COMPUTER AND EVEN ONLINE!!! AND BEST I GOT A NEW BAG!!!(but im not going to use it yet)!!!!

Mother's day or Wesak day for me?

2008-05-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

yeah ... everybody should know today is MOM's DAY..but i did celebrate Wesak day .....too..

(who ever went to Bukit Jalil should know what's going on there)...

another thing is... i dint sleep well that night... basicly the whole 24 hours of 11 MAY i was awake....

12am to 2am.... packing my stuff

2am to 2.30am .... ready gift for my mum.....

2.45am to 4.30am... watch Slit-Mouthed Woman...(i love her smile..)

5am...... awaken by my my mum with joy.........

5.30am .......... mum bang the door to wake my bro up..

till then i never rest in piece.... ...cuz at 8 got to go out...

6am roll alround on the TV's hall carpet...(where i wanted to sleep there)

6.30am mum again bang the door...(to wake my dead bro up...for nearly 15 min...the whole neighbour hood woke up i guess)

7am... get up from the sofa and bath...

8am ...leave the house then ride a ready service bus...

9am... leave taman seri gombak

9.45am reach bukit jalil...

10am... lepak..in the buss...

10am to pm........ walk around eat...pray.....ice cream......food... organic...recycle :P

...

1 pm sit bus back...

by 2pm reach home.. .and went eat...at maduras....lolz.... and eat mapadam.....(i soon will bleed nose back).....

by 3pm got to study sejarah.....

then by 4pm gave up and watch tv...till 7pm... basicly i am mr.blank that time..... under the fan..

then then.... i go jusco eat nando chicken with parent wakkaka.... my dad bought one huge box of chocolate...(dun ask me anything)

and one big set of lipstick for my mum lA!!! ...

REAL FLOWER.. i never buy before to anyone in my life!!

KIT 7 CHAI STEALING MY NUGGETS!!

LEAKAGE!!!! MY FAVARATE SHIRT T_T

non stop craping...

2008-05-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

yeah this is exspecially you tuna...who love to crap from 1 to z wakakka (number and word)
when you in the class.....the noise level is like a Petaling Street coming here... lolz... (what im crapping now) ....
Today PHYSICS...omg.... was confusing.. but luckily i did answer all and hope i dint flunk it T_T...tomorrow will be physics paper 3 and ADD MATH PAPER 2 ! THAT THE KILLING PART..try to imagine some papers with question carrying 6 to 8 marks each and you dont know how to do... feel one kind rite? haizz better i study now...tata

...well it is moral....

2008-05-07T18:39:00.003+08:00

TODAY i woke up at 7.15 and reach school around 7.35...
which was 15 late to school....
and that is my first time ever i went to school
that late - -".........
for sure i will fail my moral papers....cuz... basically ... i was sleeping there after 30 minutes of writing....

"it was very easy to fail. just sleep during the paper, wake up 15 minutes before the paper ends and answer all you can.. and voila! you fail."
-Tuna

yeah... it is true.... im going to fail again.........

but after our MORAL recess....i wanted to cabut but cant...so i stay in the library and din't study physics that well because we went up and down the whole block...and that nantha is killing us... if he want drop biology DUN F***ING HELL SAY MY NAME.. damn piss off......

yeah... when i in the library i did shout also...again and again.....soon someone will be fired off their post... really piss off adi...some more librian make the most sound....and i also did my duty.... untill 4...

well all left me...again - -"and dun know why i feel one kind when i walk home....strange johnny ..lolz.....and study physics... but eventually when im blogging...and studying i helped something till i forgot what im suppose to do...never mind i end here now... bai....

PHYSICS !!! DUN FAIL ME...

my coins tower collapse cuz of the bass of dota by basehunter

FISH LEONG!!! love her music so much

dun think anything else .... it just my wastebasket...my leg so itchy

Moral....

2008-05-07T00:03:00.001+08:00

Today Im going to sit for Moral Paper..

Best of luck... and dun be naughty!! it moral!

TUNA AND I WEBCHATING!!!

2008-05-05T23:24:00.004+08:00

my room!!

2008-05-05T22:37:00.005+08:00

yeah yeah.....

quite tidy rite my room wkaakka

love my clean tidy room wakaka..

i always be in my room... never go out...

but if i go out... i be missing for that whole day wakaka..

but if i go out also i will go out alone.. and no one will knows where am i

unless u spotted me some where wakkaka...

thank to henry i got this cute doll accompany me when i feel lonely

beside my room full of papers..... and soft doll...

yeah guys shouldent have any soft toys?

but im a kid not a guy YET!..

lolz... tuna did u delete?

2008-05-05T22:29:00.001+08:00

dear bff :)
dear best friend(s),i don't know how to say this to you, but as you know.. i'm not that type of girl. yes i laugh with you, kick your mosquito legs, laugh at the dirty jokes you tell me and of course, we used vulgar words when we don't actually mean it. but the truth is, i have no idea how to tell you what's going on with me. i appreciate every time you tell me about that girl/guy you like, the friends you hang with, the life's and death in the chronological order. the sad truth, i don't even know how to express mine. i may sound like i don't want to tell you anything. i do, i do. i do want to tell you. but i don't know how. even to tell you about the guy i like takes years to leave this very lips. heck, most of you knew it after it was over. some of you still don't know. sad.. i know.im sorry i didnt have the balls to tell you guys this because hell, i don't have balls damn it! but hey, as long i told you guys without laughing and giggling like an idiot. :) so cheerio.i love you all :) muah.

Tuna Blog

exam tomorrow!!

2008-05-04T22:04:00.002+08:00

yeah... read that title....

my mid year examination starting with Bahasa Melayu Paper 2.....

and i dint even study for my Komsas yet... wow..

then for Pendidikan Moral... OmG sure im going to be screwed...

and for Physics...no need to tell......

GARY I WANT MY EXAM TIME TABLE BACK!..... so geram ....

say borrow for a day but haizz...

Some more my fail crack ..... even more...

guess got to buy a new one ..wuu wuu.... damn heart broken...

because my beloved fail....

ANNE!!! HOW YOU I *****

2008-05-04T15:03:00.004+08:00

lolz......today i was shock.....
someone accually saw me ****ing... lolz.. but i dint realise it...
argh dun care....but strange... who he know the brand also ...
must be someone big mouth among my friends...
.......or someone really saw me ***** ...

lolz..

WHY GIVE SO MUCH HOMEWORKS!!! ..

Photography

2008-05-04T00:19:00.003+08:00

ever take picture of anything or anyone around you?

or yourself?...

lolz...

well...

basically i will take any picture i want ..... even stuff that consist of rubbish..

BUT

unfortunately... i don't have a perfect camera....sad...

wakakka tuna the rings picture sure one of my best picture i ever take... one more is the sky but i dun know where i located wakakka....

....and this picture is... when i play fire that time...

Down - JJ Lin

2008-05-03T22:12:00.001+08:00

Down

Lin Jun Jie

I can't believe it
Tell me I'm dreaming
That we are still we
It was amazing
Said you were lucky
That you found me
It was on a rainy day that we met
You didn't have a place to go
*Yeah*
I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did you fake it
Why did we kiss

And I'm just down
You let me with a note without a sound
I figure I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns
If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear
I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round
And if you don't mind
I could be your standing ground
Even if that means I’d drown*

I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just told me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did you fake it
Why did we kiss

And I'm just down
You let me with a note without a sound
I figure I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns
If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear
I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round
And if you don't mind
I could be your standing ground
Even if that means I’d drown*

and baby, that will my
one last bow

Limewire...

2008-05-03T10:01:00.001+08:00

Hear it before? lolz...
i love using that downloading songs....and NOT PORNS..
well basically i will download the song that i want to find....like songs from 4 years ago...
easier for me to hunt it down..

Best things about limewire...
sometimes can download song..
and sometimes wrong song...but also nice....(like now i got a nice tamil song ¬.¬"
hmm.... sometimes accidentally download porn...ACCIDENTALLY!!!

Lolz...

2008-05-03T09:28:00.002+08:00

1103 Bahasa Melayu
1119 Bahasa Inggeris
1225 Pendidikan Moral
1249 Sejarah
1449 Mathematics
3472 Additional Mathematics
3756 Prinsip Perakaunan
4531 Physics
4541 Chemistry
6355 English For Science and Technology

This are the SUBJECT that im going to take for my SPM... lolz..
there is one idiot and me who not going to take Biology for SPM in my school...ONLY (for science stream student)...

but one thing....the pengetua really accept my reason.....(my father accually fought with the teacher that time so they scare my dad come again...wakakaka) but for that singh.... he kena kau kau from teacher.. wakaka....... but one thing... SPM is WE sit not the teacher... why they got to control ?.... i know that if we drop..teacher will be unhappy...and come worst to worst our school will not teach Biology but.....in the end we also suffer when we got our slit...

lolz... dun care them la.....
yesterday i was so down....one of the reason ...my fail crack...!! got to buy a new one ...but dun feel like buying a new fail........cuz i like my fail..!!! .............

Tuna......>.<" why so long no see you !!

30 April 2008

2008-04-30T22:50:00.002+08:00

Today... i made a school history... the first ever student who drop a
subject (Biology) in SMK Hillcrest... and that idiot turban boy... din't
come...--...and thank to my dad...who came to school last two day without me
knowing whether he come or not...

Yeah.... during recess i skip my meal
again...to hunt the PENGETUA ... which is the first ever pengetua who supported
the library funds ever...with more red spot reference book and other books...
relevant with our school syllabus..

but she was missing during my recess
time....so i enter the library and go kutuk someone inside there....(my duty)..when the bell rang.....
what i thought is..

"OH SHIT...FELECIA CLASS.....die die die" but

but when i wanted to go down..i saw that pengetua come up..and i ask her....and enter the office seeking for a teacher..whom i didnt know..
when i start hunting... i dint know that the teacher infront of me IS THE TEACHER i need to seek....instead i round the whole school looking for that teacher..in the end i wait in the office... wakaka.... then the teacher appear... - -" dun know how many things i missed out in the chemistry lab....then i follow her for another 15 min surfing the web...to edit my SPM details...lolz...after the change i quickly go back to the lab....lucky the teacher din't baham me today...

after school.... i go see the dentist.....with someone....who i will baham back to my side.. lolz...
so i change the band ..... green and dark purple... that will help me remember Ferum 2 oxide and potassium.......but while we were waiting... we play there instead = ="..you me la.. im still a kid...

then during the trip back.. i was asleep..and when i woke up we were in wangsa maju.......to drop me there la...cuz that someone suddenly got something to do....but in the end... we got down adn eat there......then that someone now have to go...and u can see that someone mouth open that wide... - -".....when that someone left... leave me alone.....again....i go back myself lor..but unlucky my slipper TORE == so i call S.O.S... lucky i know someone in wangsa maju or i really be barefooted back home......then when he come give me dun know whose pair of slipper.. i wore it la... and i see that CJ7 doll ..so i play play said that i wan la... and he really give me....wow... free gift for the day ...lolz....

then i went and sat the Purta Lrt back...and sit bus back lor.....and fix that stupid slipper ...then return home and online... lolz.... and guess what
TUNA IS ALIVE!

Being a librian SUX alot - -

2008-04-30T22:22:00.002+08:00

yeah even though i have a post......as a treasurer....
i feel it is so f***ed when i enter the school library...
and one thing i hate the most.... i don't even know why i feel like that....
when i always see my juniors.. they will either say 'selamat sejatera, bang'..
and i just ignore or i will criticise them till i satisfied...
but when my junior say HI or YO... i straight say back hi or yo..
yeah.... although most of the seniors ex-specially the MTs...(excluding me) already scold the juniors to greet the Form 5.... but i think is a stupid thing and even waste of saliva.....
Beside as a treasurer.......
do i need to do the secretary work?..
shit them la... this year got a fat ass secretary.....a cheater vice-secretary and a good vice-secretary...but all are bums...lolz....

Chairman/Pengerusi
Vice-Chairman/Naib Pengerusi
Secretary/Setiausaha
Vice-Secretary 1/ Naib Setiausaha 1
Vice-Secretary 2/ Naib Setiausaha 2
Treasurer/Bendahari(me)

see how low is my rank...but i still have to do work for those bums and even the name list i recive...i myself slot it out and re-make a new list...(i will keep that list to myself untill the next treasurer is selected)......and this year i didn't give full support to any even or situation...happen in the library....
if so.. i will just say...lolz... see what can i do la...

and even worst... now the Form 4 librian are bugging me....cuz they want a post next year...so good good with me la... u know ....la...when u are useful they will stick to you but if you aren't... that you should know..

lolz.......another thing...there is hardly any chinese in the librian prefects.. - - and it really make me feel very very weird - -"

Hate you biology...

2008-04-29T21:49:00.001+08:00

I do not wish to have Biology subject in my SPM examination
but the teacher craps say it under a package that school supply..
but what the hell...when we were in Form 4... the school dint mention about this package..
tomorrow im going to the office and take a letter to drop biology and MR KUL IF YOU DIN'T COME TOMORROW ... i cant help you to drop it... but sure i will ask tomorrow..

damn..got to pay RM 30 per change..and must change it before 15 May - -"

But honestly...biology is an interesting subject IF you have interest

ops...which bottle blow up...

2008-04-29T21:04:00.003+08:00

Tuna,

Where are you?
Are you still alive?
Why is your seat empty?
Miss your craps le ^^"

and to someone.....

I WILL EAT YOU BACK..... TO BECOME MINE!!!
YOU SEE LA!!

lolz... basically... life must enjoy .......
enjoy it to the max....
but sometime things may go wrong...
you will think of unwanted stuff...
exspecially .....thinking how to commit suicide

yeah ..and thank to one of my friend...
accompany me when i was down......(dun want tell who)
but still i still miss that someone...

HaizZ

Bloggie

I am so lazy
Lazy to update you
Can you update yourself?

Lolz.. imagine... if you can type word in the computer WITHOUT using any movement of your hand and no keyboard... just when you think... it will be written out automaticly... cool..

I wish I have that technology!

2nd day...

2008-04-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

yup i admit missed you a lot....

sad over you until now...

and haizz dun know what and how to explain

..

today...went damansara..

with parent again..

in ikano got earth day event till 27 april..

and my mum just ask the cashier for plastic bag....

but they wont give cuz ..earth day ma ,,, and there writen no bag and

blah blah la - -".

lol nvm la... i want to watch football.. dun know who vs who but sure MU today ....MU!!

lolz..

but instead... we go watch the forbidden kingdom..

till late midnight...

and it was ok ok...... not boring and not that interesting..

after then i enjoy the jam road ..

and fall asleep in the car..again....

thininking of someone..

but... haizz.

Picture Of You - The Last Goodnight

2008-04-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

Picture Of You
The Last Goodnight

This is the clock upon the wall

This is the story of us all

This is the first sound of a newborn child,

Before he starts to crawl

This is the war that’s never won

This is a soldier and his gun

This is the mother waiting by the phone,

Praying for her son

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Hung upon your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Remind us all of what we used to be

There is a drug that cures it all

Blocked by the governmental wall

We are the scientists inside the lab,

Just waiting for the call

This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside

I'm high up and dry

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Hung upon your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Remind us all of what we could have been

Confess to me, every secret moment

Every stolen promise you believed

Confess to me, all that lies between us

All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring

We are the bells that never sing

There is a title we can't win no matter

How hard we might swing

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Hung upon your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Remind us all of what we could have been

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Hung upon your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you, pictures of me

Remind us all of what we could have been

yes or no?

2008-04-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

what are you?
why you make human so addicted to you..
if i try you will i get my trouble away?
i so blur..you also smoke..
i dun want you to smoke
but it doesn't work..

then better i try also.
so no one can stop you

Vista Ultimate

2008-04-21T22:12:00.004+08:00

Lolz nice?... i just upload it today...and guess what i got it for free!! thank to my brother.....

even the serial number.. too ^^v...

and my bother got Vista Home Basic.. Vista Home Premium.. and

of course Vista Ultimate.. lolz..

so do you want?

2008-04-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

1 cents

5 cents

10 cents

20 cents

50 cents

lol and even

RM1 coins

WoW

and even

china's

americian's

thai's

korean's

coins - -"

today i collect all my coins that shatter 360 degrees in my room... and ... counted them.....and even use them for today trip to penguin house ¬.¬ .... today is the first time i use coins for everything...except that RM1 coins... ... cuz it doesn't contain any value..

beside today i did only one 'karangan' for my moral folio.... and need 2 more 'karangan' and a picture report to complete it...........but teacher want it tomorrow... ... if not ... cut marks.. lolz

but you all know my attitude la...

today penguin also become a good penguin.... study only....(tomorrow penguin exam).. strange kan? but hope penguin can do well... or be doom by me...and tuna...... happy go lucky with your Y Lun lolxxx..

i also wonder how girls can produce lots of craps or interesting stories in thier blog.......they can even crap one small thing into a few paragraph of words.......come worst to worst ---> pages of words.... yaya tuna.... i know my blog is boring... cuz i din't update... but i really have nothing to write already..... even when i do my essay and karangan... i will go blank halfway... but if you ask me points i can give u alot.... of points....(not politics topic... i never knew anything about them and even IPT)

by the way today...I FEEL WANT TO **** the rapid kl lady who ask me go buy the ticket at the automatic counter... she just say "go there and buy"...... i was like..." what the hell my wish to buy where i like" in me... but i just quietly go and buy and wait for the train .... lazy to argue with anyone today...lolz.....

then during the evening after i reach home....i met up with mrs tan again....and chit chat until my mum come back ....we were outside the gate chating and chating.... this and that... and even that day storm ... the worst storm ever hit sri gombak i seen...but still i like it...lolz..do you?... maybe malaysia will have snow storm if the north pole ice melt again.......

have you ever watch One Miss Call... by the american film industries?... it is a boring movie... i prefer the japanese one... even the ring tone... japanese film is still the best....when you watch it... maybe you will agree with me... lolz.........

and watch out... maybe someone will be calling you tonight...and you wont wish to know your future death :P

2008-04-17T15:30:00.004+08:00

lolz... tuna...
i and penguin dint break la .... we settle out the problem... that day itself.....
and
to whom ever think that i wondering with a purple girl in the school...

"Bang... girlfriend you kris prs tu kan... "
"jangan tipu tipu..."

KRISTUNA IS NOT MY GIRLFRIEND>..<"... but one of my best friend ever... lolz.. haizz i wonder why in my school ....

HAIZzZZ

in school... during moral again... we do folio moral... dead line.. next week.. and the last task was given just TODAY... i wonder can i finish in time... and i need finish up my biology work.. .. and... hunt back my PEKA report... i wonder where i place it... hmm nvm i will redo it again with someone who not yet do....lol.....

just now in tuition... wow.... "no sweets and canned drink in class already''
and there is a group of idiots blame form 5 making the most rubbish...
instead... is them who trew all rubbish around ....but we get the blame..
....

now me want to continue watch my drama... cioz...